memories
are fading
slowly by slowly,
forcing ourselves
to remember something
may just exhaust
ourselves.

it could be
better
to forget
even though
it's something
important
'cause there's no
choice
of remembering
something
when they've already
forgotten
us.

Every life is special.
There's no such life that isn't special.
Pessimistically or Optimistically,
life is still a special one.
Don't blame life--it's just because of fate.
Fate may be cruel--though it's just it wants you to experience something.
Something that you didn't expect or hope for.
And speaking of special,
yes, you are special too.
Don't say that you shouldn't have lived or born in this world.
Don't say that it's your fault.
No one is at fault.
It's just a coincidence or maybe just a sign in your life.
Don't sulk over petty things.
You may have lost someone you love in your life,
you have to hoist yourself and keep moving.
Staying on the situation where you have too many problems--
is kind of absurd, man.
I am not saying this because I didn't undergo what you've been through...
But I am saying this because--
you are a special person like me that
even our Lord God still cares
even if we've sinned too much in our life.

the place where I learnt to love--
is also that place where I suffered yet too much.

I am trying to figure it out,
What is happening in my life,
But as the second, minute, hour, day, week, and a year went by,
I still didn't know and understand.

Now, I am somehow kind of lost in the darkness,
Trying to look for a light,
But there seems no light and my life is starting to ebb,
And I am in awful shape.

I am trying to look for someone's sympathy,
But they never would look at me,
They just walked and passed by,
Until I become nothing that even ashes and shadows were nothing left.

wishing is just a wish,
so I am not hoping for it to be true.
though, I doubted that myself
couldn't even tolerate that wishes
ain't even going to be true.

People said that we cry either because we are sad or because of our negative emotions,
but I think we people cry for a different reasons,
not just because we are sad,
but it's because we are happy.

it started
with a sweet lies
just to make a conversation
and just to put a smile on its face

but it ended so quick
no one knows but her that I am a freak
who would only tell such a lies
but she never knew that it was sweeter than sugar

Too fragile
but
can't stop the loving self,
even though
may end up
being
desolated.

I stood up
I loved
I cared
I gave everything
And most of all, I made even myself a fool

Do I look like a clown?
Do I look like a nobody?
Do I look like a plaything?
And most of all, what have I done so wrong?

Then, tell me if I deserve to be given of your love?
Then, tell me if I am worthy enough to be given of your care?
Then, tell me if I am not enough to be your someone not a nobody?
And most of all, do I really have to beg and plead for all of it just for you to stay?

To live is like to die forever,
And to die is like to live forever.

So if you wanna live--
you just need to die first,
So if you wanna die--
you just need to live first.

Life is exhausting.
It's way too short yet giving you too many problems.

But unless if you wanna live,
then you should accept death first--
for you not to struggle in the end.

why?
Of all the woman in this world--
why does it have to be you?
who only chooses a good-looking one
and not someone who has dignity and ambition.

why does it have to be you?
who always left me and hurt me..
I am tired of being a toy...
I am tired of loving...
But here I am, still doing it...
I even made a poem to express my love on you;
and to show how I really love you...
But what can I do?
Even though how many poems that either I have made or going to write..
there's still no point of it--because you don't like me...

Reward yourselves for all the success;
and sacrifices you've done,
Life isn't needed to be solicited--
may it be an appreciation or acknowledgment from others.
Because--we can just give it using ourselves.

When someone started to lie,
It started to **** everyone,
It spreads too quickly,
And soon it becomes the generalized virus thingy,
As it has killed too many people,
People started to become cautious,
People started to realize,
That they are the one who's at fault,
But only realizes when they've all died,
Yet the virus thingy continues to **** even an animal.

Refrain from seeing first
And wheeze deeply
Do not descend into stupefaction
Because thee were not born to depart thy life.

He is romantically in love,
But his devotions are passive,
There's nothing he can do,
But admire his beloved one's beauty.

the toughest part of being swindled on--
is actually the vacillation-
which begins to enter your thoughts,
not the pain.

Love may just be a word,
But, I can always turn it into reality
Especially when you are the one--
that I am being in love.

She was rather a bad person,
For stealing my heart without my permission,
For letting me fall on her easily,
And for giving my attention to her.

But isn't it way too obnoxious?
That I am the only one who fell.
That I am the only one who made an effort.
And the only one--who played as a fool.

Pain always help you to grow up,
even though it makes you suffer,
but it will give you a realization--
that you should be doing what you love.

accepting each mistake
is one of the nicest things
you would ever hear in the world
and one of the wishes you've ever wished for.

but it is just a mere hallucination
that would never become real
but just an imagination.

twinkle, twinkle my little star
you are beautiful no matter what you are
shining and sparkling every night
and you always give me light

twinkle, twinkle my little star
hoping that you'll not go so far
even if I cannot reach you, my little star
I'll still stare and love you, my little star.

It's too late!
Yes, it's actually really late now!
You came when I was already in love;
in love with someone which I could never have.

Completely tortured,
Unfortunately devastated,
Sadly wrecked,
But suddenly woke up from the affliction.

I tried to look
for a lost soul of someone,
but it's probably late
because the body has been buried already
and the soul is nowhere to be found.

people say:
'crying is only for a weak person'

why would I  not agree?
of course yes.

but, is it only for a weak person?
and for a dispirited person?

because I believe that;
'crying is also a part of being strong--strong in emotion".

A mistake isn't should be remorse with,
After all, it's what yourself have decided to choose,
and it's the cause of trusting your fate too much or maybe not,
even though it's already noticeable in the first place,
still, you chose what's right for you,
and which is comfortable for you.

it was so strange at first
until I have known
of these feelings of mine
which is can't be easily replaced
without you in it.

lived in a ****** world
cursing each person who makes trouble on me
but I have calmed down already
knowing that even in this ****** world
I'd be okay unless I have you.

'Til we meet again,
My beloved friend,

'Til our next path may meet again,
My beloved friend,

And 'til our next adventure again,
My beloved friend.
'

As the sadness went in your life,
There came your eyes are in a whimper,
Wondering how people couldn't even realize what your situation is already with,
But you didn't care because life is just like that.

Sadness became the reason why your life is so unlucky and miserable,
But they didn't notice it as well,
Whether in your eyes is happiness or sadness,
Because both of them reside with it.

Everything is prerequisite
to greatness-
to become a better someone.

Corresponding sounds in life does not even need,
You don't have to make them alike,
You don't have to compare,
And you don't have to make it rhyme as well.

Life is way too short,
So, broaden it and take it slow.

There had a day,
That I looked at the star,
Which I have fallen in love with,
Staring at it untimely and continuously,
Until I have realized,
That I am staring and fell in love,
With someone's star.

hard to be-
a decent human being,
i guess life *****,
so i'll just become-
a vile human being.

Just
Can't
Call
It
A
Destiny,

When
You
And
Me
Are
Not
Even
Meant
To
Be.

I was in the darkness
Felt nothing but dimness
I thought that I'd die in loneliness
But there she saved me along with her presence and caress.

She was part of my life.
A savior in my life,
and guidance in my life.
But when once she left me,
there's nothing I felt-
But emptiness and darkness.

Someday we can't touch again those things we've touched,
Someday we may feel of regretting of all things we have done and did not,
Someday we can't show our loved ones especially when they're already gone,
And someday we can't see their smiles and hug them anymore.

There are too many tangible things in our world,
But feelings and emotions are not,
So we should do all the things that are meant to happen,
Because life is way too short.

If you've lost many times,
should know what is your limit.
But if you've won countless times,
then keep it up..

You don't have to be afraid of ghosts,
spiders and such scary stuff.
What you have to be afraid of;
is someone might gonna leave you someday,
without you noticing.

you should remember
that no matter how happy you are,
heaven and sky will still cry.

I thought I could find it with you,
although there was peace,
unluckily never found freedom in the end.

memories on the floor—
scattered and crumpled
from the sheets I used to write
too puzzled yet remained mysterious
but searched everywhere for something I couldn't found
from where it all had begun—
of how I fell in love with your cruelty — your cruel kindness.