Never will I forget this day
I was 12
Playing in my neighbors back yard
We jump roped, played hopscotch
I was happy
One day we were listening to the radio
Singing, dancing and laughing
He called us inside to have lunch
His hand wrapped around the small of my back
I flinched, my heart stopped
Something was wrong
and I did not know yet what it was
He asked his daughter to leave the room
As I began to leave with her
I was demanded to stay
as the door locked, my heart dropped I couldnt breathe
He looked so pleased with him self as his eyes looked me up and down
I tried to run
He grabbed my wrists and threw me on the floor
What happened next forever changed me
I can not get the images out of my head
Did he know how much he would mentally **** me up?
Does he know the mental issues I now suffer because of him?
Did he know that years down the road
When I was finally married to the love of my life
and he would try to hold my hand or kiss my forehead
I'd flinch in fear?
Many times has my husband held me while I sobbed in our bed
He watched me suffer through this pain
and deal with me being so torn up inside
it kills him.
What really ****** me up
was when I was 12
and I learned that the world is cruel
You will be abused and hurt
And no one will stop it from happening.
Triggering to some.
I had to write this to get this out of my system