Devil please don’t take me there.
I will get too familiar .
Find it easy , it’s just 1 hit.
Without notice il be tweaking on a full binge .
Without notice,
1 Hit Will Convert to many .
I continuously hit it.
Forgetting theres a limit.
My surroundings
Become unnoticed.
What’s important, Is Forgotten.
I’m careless Over whatever’s
in my circuit.
I’m just focused on the dope & Ingesting more.
To get high but higher than
I’ve ever been.
That High no longer exists.
All My Misery Vanishes
My emotions tie back
Everything I hurt over
, Is no longer In my thoughts.
Just like my negativity?
My Amusement & happiness Disappear too.
Completely numb.
Devil Please stay away .
Il turn cold with a grin.
Il be selfish & Careless.
What I love Will No longer
be important
Il care for nobody But The dope that fools my mind.
I’m another person When I’m ingested with lots of ice.
I lose my state of mind
My mind wanders off
The drug
Removes Your struggles.
Just to make room for the Devils Gifts for choosing to live
easy & quick

Devil please stay away
Il fall quick & forget About sobriety.

I hope one day you
Realize & Notice.
All The obstacles I crossed
To be by your side today .
How I Experienced
So much Misery & sadness
To be able to call myself
Your girlfriend .

My love was true.
I Expressed it so much.
I did everything you wanted.
Id Make sure you were happy & Comftable Around me.
Always making sure you felt special and Important.
You seen I really liked you.

You Mistreated me.
I Still Continued making sure I made you feel Some type of lovely way.
You constantly hurt me.
Feeling hurt & pouring tears I still Wrote you cute texts.

You told me you will never love me & I will never be someone special to you.
With A broken Heart
I Continued to see you every day not minding What you had just said.

I made sure you felt worthy .
You made me feel worthless
You Made me feel insecure.
I always told you how handsome & **** I found you .

I Made you See positive things about your life.
You Made me see the negative of mines. Reminding me of mistakes I Did & due to it I won’t ever be some one great.

I Showed You nothing but affection & Attention.
You Showed me
Carelessness & neglection.

I Was fixing You.
Gluing your broken pieces back. At times you purposely flicked it & I fixed them too.

You Were Breaking me.
You seen & didn’t care.
My Tear drops never Made you Realize how sad you constantly made me feel.
You never felt bad .

The journey I Went through
To Call myself your girlfriend today.
Was A Trip To Make myself happy.
Drugs Was All i known.
Loving you & Adoring You was my distraction.

I hope you one day realize That I was nothing but good to You.

Inlove again.
.Magical crystals
I feel pleasure of feeling nothing.
im numbed.
My emotions & Thoughts
Have vanished.
I’m in love again .
No euphoria, just numbness.
Lovelit.

I’ve Forgotten .
The power Of escaping.
No longer caring .
It’s wonderful .
Refreshed my memory
On why I chose this over
Everybody.

My Hearts been broken .
The Pieces Of Glass
Will Recover it fast.
By Each puff I take
The smoke will cure
not only my heart but  
My sadness & pain.

I gave my love away.
I regret it so much.
I was Loving Someone
Who Just played & Betrayed.

I knew I should’ve stayed away.
Dopelove Baby
Is where it belonged.
Where it remains

I’m scared .
To lose my strength.
Have no durability.
To Give in So quick.
Be that weak
Where I don’t fear Tweak.
Find it easy
To just go seek.

I’m Worried
To reach that level .
Just Relapse constantly .
not care who Knows.
My problems
Have me overwhelmed.
Every day
The Stress grows .
I can’t bare another
Tug & Pull.

It's true you've never gone this far before
But this isn't exactly new
I want to trust you again but
That's easy to say and harder to do
For nearly three years I put up with petty flirting
An uphill battle, a tiring journey
I got lulled into a false security
Believing you to never really hurt me

But you did.

Where do we go from here?
I'm trying to figure it out but through all these years,
I've never had to forgive you for something this huge
Something I'm not even done hurting over -
I don't know what to do.
I'm scared, so scared this wont be the last,
And if I'm to go on the past,
Then it'll be no time before you're back.

You said the easy thing to do is to forgive you,
that love makes us weak.
Then why is this so ******* hard?
Why is love the only thing keeping me on my feet?
I think, your love is weak and you don't know who I am.
No more putting up with your stupid fans.
No more flirting or hugging or studio dates.
One more and we're done
I'm not accepting any more mistakes.

I'm so tired.