My aesthetic is bike grease,
hands covered in slippery oil,
a night's ride full of fun,
adventure rolling like the wheels.

You're the reason I go to sleep happy
You still want to die
If a wish could come true
I'd waste it on you changing your mind

I wish I wasn't such a coward.
I wish that I could end my life without guilt.
If I wasn't such a coward I would have done it by now.
I wish I wasn't so scared.
Of death.
If I wasn't so scared I could have died by now.
I wish I wasn't so unhappy.
Maybe then my family would want me.
Maybe then my girlfriend would want me.
Maybe then I would want me.

Sitting in a tub
Full of red water and tears
Waiting to see stars

Though I wish it were a marriage

You have so much potential.
So, So, So, So much.
And whenever you put a blade to your skin,
I watch the universe leak from the scars on your wrist.

Endless stars in your dark eyes
Like streetlamps lighting up city skies
Drowned in a pool that's filled with lies
A shattered mirror while all else dies

coming up with ways
for us to be close
finding little moments for us
to be alone
your nurturing care saves me early
you don't know my habits
I want to learn all your thoughts
that you won't leave me lonely
or drunken or cold
savoring happiness like we know
days like these don't last
and feelings like these
don't stand a chance.