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7.9k · Jan 2019
Goodbye
Ollie Jan 2019
Goodbye to the tears rolling down my cheeks
Goodbye to the bleeding through my sheets
Goodbye to fighting a battle I'll never win.
Goodbye to a world full of sin.
Goodbye to a hopeless night.
Goodbye...I lost my fight.
Yeah idk This just kind of came out of my brain. I hope you guys like it!
534 · Jan 2019
oxygen
Ollie Jan 2019
TaKe Me To a PLaCe WHeRe We BReaTHe iN
LuST
aND We eXHaLe
LoVe
I actually am pretty proud of this poem. What do you guys think?
369 · Dec 2018
Lucid Dreaming
Ollie Dec 2018
“You’re early” death finally says.
Tears slowly but surely run down my cheeks. I tell him I know
and he asks me what brought me here.
I tell him I think he knows.
My Cheeks are now a weary waterfall.
the thoughts I’ve come to know as true
finally fade to black, as
I forget the life that I can never take back.
I wrote this a while ago Enjoy!
255 · Jan 2019
But it wont be okay
Ollie Jan 2019
I am sorry I have scared your arm
And messed up in all sorts of ways
I swear that I meant no harm
I promise It will be
Okay
I am honestly debating whether or not I should be alive right now.
237 · Jan 2019
The end (a haiku)
Ollie Jan 2019
six feet underground
I want to get to know death
slowly getting there
226 · Dec 2018
Dysphoric blues
Ollie Dec 2018
They say I should bind. So sometimes I do. But not because they told me so, but because I want to. They say I need to act like more of the boy they want me to want me to be. But I am okay with the boy I know I am. I can wear push-up bras, and I can bind. I am just as much of a boy as he who wears Nike, though I may not seem as much of a man.
But I will be who I want to be...
Because I can
Sooooo yeahhhhh I hope you like this poem!
216 · Dec 2018
Moonlight
Ollie Dec 2018
If our love was a flower it would be a rose. A beautiful thing, but you must stay cautious, because if you got to close, you might just get cut by the thorns...
If our love was an animal it would be a lone wolf. Because she loves to travel alone.
And I love the moon
201 · Dec 2018
Love
Ollie Dec 2018
And my lips were now
fire
When I touched him
my hands
were the stars and he
was the sky
And what used to be the ceiling
was the clouds
I
was
Flying
I am learning to love myself by loving the way he looks at me
183 · Jan 2019
Him
Ollie Jan 2019
Him
If I could die
I'm sure I would
But not just yet
For this life is just too good
So yeah
176 · Jan 2019
Suicide
Ollie Jan 2019
Try
Fail
Try
Fail
Try
Die
Drift
FLY
I wanna fly***
173 · Dec 2018
We're all mad here
Ollie Dec 2018
It was then that I realized My mind is like the rabbit hole from Alice in Wonderland. Once I fell in, I knew there was no going back. Deeper and deeper I fell...Until I hit rock bottom.
Inspired by Alice and wonderland
166 · Jan 2019
Holding my breath
Ollie Jan 2019
It does not matter whether or not I hold my breath.
They are putting me in water.
And expecting me to
Breathe
...
Drowning in my own thoughts
ahhh I tried
161 · Jan 2019
The boy who cried wolf
Ollie Jan 2019
This time I’ll be happy
This time I won’t hurt myself
This time I’ll love myself
I wish
Ollie Jan 2019
I do not want my name in the stars.
I don’t want my name in the books.
I don’t want my name your mouth...
Ollie Jan 2019
My mind is empty, and my body’s a host.
I’m a storage facility made for her ghost.
For the imprint she made has stuck to me.
I cling to her abuse relentlessly.
Is it okay that I said no? It doesn't matter, she didn't listen anyways
115 · Dec 2018
Untitled
Ollie Dec 2018
We give each others hands a shake
And sob until the tears make
The only other sound’s the break
Of distant waves and birds awake
The suicidal ideation deep
But we have promises to keep
Until then we must not sleep
For we’ll be in bed with tear ducts that weep
We will rise from our lonely bed
With thoughts of sadness in our head,
We idolise being dead.
Facing the day with hopeful dread.
Thanks Robert Frost for the inspiration and the underlying structure
Ollie Jan 2019
In one hand prescription drugs
Trazodone 50mg
And in the other a glass of water
I pour the pills into my hand
It should all be over soon
But something stopped me that day
And I'm afraid to say it's gone away
Am I dead
;
Is this the end?
97 · Jan 2019
***If I drifted away***
Ollie Jan 2019
I’ve tried for years to conceal my sadness. I know there’s no escape to this madness. There’s no reason on this earth left for me to stay. For three years I’ve contemplated this everyday.  And I know that the world will still go on. Because I’m not really something to be thought on. That’s what I know they said. All my peers at school. In the grand scheme of things, I’m pretty miniscule. And it feels like there is this hole in my heart. And my reason to stay alive is drifting apart. I still can’t believe today I’m gonna die; so this is it world...goodbye
I wrote this a while ago. More of a song but oh well.
94 · Jan 2019
I think I'm fucked
Ollie Jan 2019
Life is like a choose your own adventure book
You make one wrong decision
And you’re ******
yup

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