If everything were easy,

It may not feel so great,

Yet when everything is difficult,

Life's an unforgiving state.

A life that is much simpler,

Without sorrow, without pain,

Maybe I should pull the plug,

And look to start again.

I look to make things better.

Don't quit 'til my last breath,

But on true reflection,

I'd be better choosing death.

I'm sitting, waiting for demise,

No shoes, nor any socks,

As time continues on its march,

To the sound of ticking clocks.

I'm too tired to compute,

I'm way too tired to think,

I'm just too tired to enjoy life,

I'm not two, but one on the brink

Enveloping, it cloaks me,

The darkness of the night,

I become an unknown entity,

Until tomorrow's light.

Seeking solitude in crowded rooms,

Wanting company of one,

I'm happy trying to hide away,

Until the crowd has gone.

When I sit and softly question,

The place where I belong,

I labour to convince myself,

That I've done nothing wrong



It's not in the steps I've taken,

But deep inside my mind,

I'm a lost soul that is struggling,

Searching for hope, I cannot find.

I am known by the people I love,

Not loved by the people I know,

For I am not a performer,

Nor am I part of a show

We sit and stare through windows,

Hoping tales they will begin,

But have we ever thought that they,

Are outside looking in?

Every hour, on the hour,

She's visited by men,

I haven't sat and watched all day,

But I'll still counted ten

Too many times I've failed to act,

Too many times sat still,

To find myself alone too much,

Too cold to feel the chill

Yesterday was sunny,

Yet today it's sadly grey,

Strange how little yellow dots,

Can make you feel this way.

I looked straight through her,

Ghostly presence,

Too thin,

All skin,

Draw features,

Cold,

Scarred,

Scared,

Was this who,

Raised me,

Happy mothers,

Sorry sons.

Cold shudders that then crunch the bones,

Fingers numb, shaped bent by pain,

Unable to now hold an eye,

I wish for time again.

The other side of forever,

We could have shared the view,

Now I am sat here just dying,

Instead of there with you.

No longer is it shackled,

Nor kept quiet in a cage,

It's time to feed the monster,

To now, release the rage.