Sometimes I wish I could go back in time.
That wasn't how I wanted it to end.
You could've told me
Ya know

about how you felt that day
you didn't have to leave that
as the last time
I saw you.

I would've told you how I felt
how your worth is that of an angel.
but
you really are an angel now
silently flying
your beautiful music dying.

I wish you would've told me.

Ya know?

I promise I care.

I need a hug. Please.

Oh really so you think you got me figured out.

I put walls up for you  just to see that now ...umm hola?! ...I’m locked out.

Oh really so you think you got me figured out .

Took my culture and gave me a president that pushed homosexuality so my sons won’t procreate the situations of skin cause ....black?! Oh there’s nothing to talk about.

Oh really so you think you got me figured out.

Is it bird,
Is it a plane!
No it’s super...bug?
Huh I wonder what’s that all about.
(Research)

Oh really so you think you got me figured out.

Only you, she said.
Not of anything important but
The importance of that nothing
Raised a veil from my eyes
And light poured in to fill
The void I'd grown inside.

I'm glad, she said.
Not for lack of meaning but
Meaning my lack of
Confidence detracted not from
Her joy and her smiles.

Thank you, she said.
Not just empty breaths but
That each breath I'd emptied
Grinning was matched by one
Of her own brighter moments.

Everything, she said.
And left me, wondering if
All this wondering left only
One truth sealed still
Locked behind her eyes.

Dare I look deeper?
Until even the edges of my mind
Are only you.

There was a boy who loved to play games
He met a girl, fell in love, it’s a shame
They spoke with such grace
But never met face to face
Of his love, no one knows what became

Everybody deserves to fall in love.
No one deserves the aftermath.

I want to be saved,
I am getting ****** deeper and deeper
In my sorrow.
I wonder,
Will I ever meet a happy 'morrow?
I feel like a bird,
Shot with an arrow.
I am losing hope,
Just like that shot sparrow.
Maybe you...
Maybe you can save me,
If only your happiness and care, I could Borrow.

Step 1: Get out of bed
Step 2: Look in the mirror
Step 3: Practice your smile
Step 4: Eyedrops to hide the red eyes
Step 5: Conceal the dark circles
Step 6: Breathe
The curtains are almost up
Step 7: Lock down the pain
Step 8: Ignore the weight on your chest
Step 9: Silence the screams inside of your mind
Step 10: Choke down the sobs
Step 11: Ignore the stinging in your eyes
Step 12: Swallow past the tightness in your throat
You’ve put on this show a million times
Step 13: Don’t let them see
Times up. Curtains up. Camera rolling