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Mercia Sep 2018
My story.
Where do I begin? Normally people would say at the beginning, but what if the story has no beginning or the beginning has been forgotten. What if every lie is the beginning and truth is the ending, would that complicate life? Or would it be understandable. Confusion is humans main language. Before we speak we confused whether we should or not. Before we say our words our minds are confused whether it's right or wrong. This confusion is accepted if not said, but when uttered is a disgrace. But a disgrace to who actually? Is it a disgrace to those who assume you understand or to yourself for being naturally confused. Anyway that is not the story. My story is dumber and simpler then that. It's the typical boy meets girl, girl meets boy. Okay, its not that simple cause it now sounds stupid. Let me spice it up, maybe you will be able to identify too much spice. He was or should I say is a normal yet complex rubix cube. I could read him till I thought I was smart enough to scrabble him up and set him back again. Yet he has one flaw, a flaw that made him smell like garbage. This flaw was, that he lived flings, loved flings, is flings. His cube had a missing part. The red part. It was all black. Even when questioned his master mind was quick to come up with lies. How we met is forgotten yet lied about. We told the world that we met at school, but what if we didn't. We told them we liked each other. Yet we couldn't drink water without telling one another. The beginning was forgotten. My biggest flaw that he could see is that, I lived love, I love love and I was built on pieces of a buttered heart. Yet I remained with him. He would shoot fireworks of heartaches yet I would smile and pretend I'm not choking on the smoke. He would slice my buttered heart yet I would smile and say you would be a great butcher.. He never understood me and I always let that slide. I was a continuous joke and he the comedian. What was left of me at the end was truth. That no matter what, I am willing to go through it all till I find my Valentine. The world called me crazy. I was confused, am I crazy for believing or crazy because I am strong. I'm made with love. Something unbreakable. No one can take that away. Even He, couldn't
Mercia Sep 2018
Hold my hand, Destiny
Walk with me down the aisle
As we walk,my story will be told
I've lost many
The ones you see,remained
We've clashed and crushed
But forever their here
As I walk down this aisle
I see who I've lost
I see whose forever
Blood has been spilt
But the heart beat forever
Courage
Love
Blessings
They are to me
Pain
Annoying
Hurtful
I was to them.
Forgiveness is our chain
Chained together;we are forever
The man I walk to
Is my man forever
We've hurt
We've burnt
We've cried
But never died
Him and I
Are hotter than lighting
Him and I
Stole confidence from the mighty lion
Him and I
Are bulletproof
He fell in love with me
His proud to be in my psychotic world
I fell in love with him
His world is my safe haven
But thanks to you.
Thank you destiny
Without you I would be blind
Without you I would be naive
But here I stand with gratitude towards you.
You are my ultimate friend.
Love friends best pain hurt random weird destiny forever sad
Mercia Aug 2018
Can I be happy
Can I see myself smile without you being the reason.
Why do you have to roam around my heart.
Why do you make it seem as if life is simple
Yet
When I see you
You with her
When I want to talk to you
I fear you in her presence
Why should I fear your wrath or pretence
Why can't you just tell me
Why can't you be honest
Why should I suffer under your pretence
Why pretend you my friend
If you only seek what you want such as work
A joke.
You and I are a joke.
Unknown to all and just an atom to nothing.
Love... Love is just a wild fire in Antarctica...
Mercia Aug 2018
His melody
My melody
Sunshine
Jolly good fakers we are
Jolly good people we not
We gave the world sparkles
But we held no sparkles in heart
We suffered
We lived pretence

His melody
My melody
Darkness
Tears like the desert I held
Hidden tears he shed
Silence he pained
Oblivious I was
Silence he cries
Oblivious I am
Silence he will torture
Oblivious I will be

His melody
My melody
Confusion
He hid his pain
His fake life read by the world
No true form shown
His skin bitten off by societies boundaries.

His melody
My melody
Death
Slowly he fades
Slowly the desert waters
He gave up
He gave up pretending
He gave up giving sparkles
He gave up trying to live for those who saw
Saw the real him

My melody
No longer do I want it
My tears are my remedy
No longer do I hold it

I've lost my Sunshine
I'm losing my love
I'll lose my sanity

Melody
Mercia Aug 2018
Dear Insecurities.

Insecurity, my old friend.
I did not request for your coming.
Nor was your arrival the cause of joy.
Insecurity, my old pal.
You and I go way back.
From the day I understood words.
Fam, we lost connection when I met Confidence.
I heard that you and Confidence fought over me, and I see that you won.
Insecurity, I need a favour.
I need you to go.
Go far and bring Peace for me.
I always push you away and you keep pulling me in.
As ancients say opposite attract.
You messed up my mind
You messed up my life
You the most ****** issue in life.
Insecurity, you cute and all but I don't want you.
They say let go of what you love, but what do you do to the things you dislike?
I can't keep you, Insecurity.
This what we have, is poison.
You slowly killing me
Please leave.
Kind Regards
Mercia Jorge
Mercia Aug 2018
I told you the truth
You pained.
I apologized
You never told me if you forgive me.
Was it wrong of me?
Should I have lied to you instead?
Regret is what keeps me awake
Knowing I have ruined what was good with truth..
Was our friendship ever meaningful?
Or just a flame meant to be burnt out?
Formality ain't for us yet you use it.
I bear in me the last burst of fire.
For your friendship
Mercia Aug 2018
I'm fine.
Please believe me when I lie.
I'm hurting deep inside.
I'm crying every night.
I'm not alone, but in need of loneliness.
I hate silence, but I would rather have silence than invite my best pal insecurity.
I'm fine
Please believe me when I lie.
~M.J
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