How long should my sadness last?
When will it come to an end?
Will it ever stop? For a split second, I might feel happiness touching my heart, but then waves of grief washes over me.
Still, for what length of time should I cover the bridges of my eyes to hide the tears that are starting to well up?
Still, how long should I continue to act as I'm alive  though I'm dead?
when will the world realize that i was dead inside a long time ago...

HOW DOES THAT RUSH FEEL ?
THAT FIRST TOUCH RUSH
THAT FIRST KISS RUSH
THAT GLANCE RUSH

while we continued to suffer
we still loved each other

can you pray for me
save my soul for me
i am so deeply stuck
that i couldn't even breath

at least , at last love me
even though its not the consuming love
i just wanna experience the warmth of it ...

"tum haaree vajah se dard
vah meree pyar ki  kahaanee"
the suffering brought on by you
"That's my story for  LOVE"

with tears rolling down my cheek
i understood that
"they may want you be the happiest in your life
but you will neve be their first priority"
and this hit me hard...