If I die before I wake
All my memories you should take
Nestle them deep within your hands
Then release them swift as blowing sand

I am the earth; the earth is me
Look to the sky, that's where I'll be
Spread my love and do not weep
Do not mourn, for I am free

The delicacy of a daisy
The innocence of
Evening rain
Washed away in a sea of
Pain
Because he took it all away
It became elements of
Rot
And
Decay
The ghosts of past obscenities
Never disappeared
Haunted dreams
Reappeared
Daylight becomes the night
There is no sun for flowers
Not even water from the skies
Could cleanse away
The
Power

You can't give me the world
and then take your promises back
Please enlighten me,
what sort of love is that?
You can't say what you will
and then do what you won't
Help me understand,
because I feel that I don't
You can't make me smile
and then make me cry
Deep down I am saddened
because I truly know why

What sort of love is that?

Liberty from my inner prisons;
from my mind I am freed!
No more shall I fall;
my heart is lighter indeed!
Toast up your wine
in honor of my soul;
For freedom taste like honey
and my future's paved in gold!
Be it the center of a rose;
I am the food of the seed
Let the wind carry my presence;
for I have finally been freed!

Oh the pain
Oh the pain it hurts
and it hurts so bad
Clutching my chest in heaving
never ending breaths
I've lost my soul
I've gone mad
I sit here to pass the time
while you try to buy it
You think I'm fine
but I'm heartbroken
and I hide it
So you smile and drink
your tea down smooth
while I try not to notice
your lips
every wrinkle around your mouth
every motion
every groove
You reach out to
You reach out to touch me
and a fire lights inside
But you packed your ****
and now the cab is coming
because you said
you said the fire died
I was convinced
so I did not fight
Just let you go
into the breeze
into the rain
out of the snow
You kissed me one last time
one last time
and in that split minute
of a moment
you were still mine
and in being mine I rubbed you
and I kissed your chin
and I asked you
was the pain worth giving in
You only smiled
wiped my tears away
Walked right out on my life
and told me I'd be okay
left me in a state of disbelief
complete disarray
and the pain was so extreme
I couldn't even pray
So I took my life right there
right where you left me
right where you left me standing
and as I watched my body become
a distant visual memory in dreaming
a painful reminder
an ugly history of a sad and
a weakly human being
I watched you come back

I watched you

I
watched
you
come
back

And as the rain trickles down
my sense of wonder
I continue to question my
being

And as the sun fails to shine
on dark valley nights
I continue to walk without
seeing

And as the body shuts down with
failure to thrive my senses
become weak by
deceiving

But as the skies come alive
to promise me hope
I shall never give up on
believing

laying next to you
brings out my inner demons
**you are forbidden

if I had to pick one word
or two
or even if I could pick three
there isn't enough
there isn't that much soul
on God's green earth
to describe what you mean to me

when my days are rendered dark
when there's scars upon my skin
you pull me close and heal my wounds
you forgive me for my sins
let it be known when I say
you are the best
in fact you mean so much more
i just wish I had the right way to say it
I just wish I had the words

i couldn't imagine sailing
the sea of rolling tides
without you by my side
you've seen me at my greatest
and at my worst
you've seen me deep in pain
you've seen me lost and hurt
but not once have you ever left
not once have you ever gone
you saw our friendship
for it was to become

you asked me to write you a poem
and I'm sorry it took so long
because to sit and write
every emotion I feel
I want to do you most of justice
I don't want to do you wrong

If I ever leave this world before you
will you please promise me this?
Never stop looking up at the beauty in the sky for what it is
For you'll find me in the rays of sun blowing you a kiss
Sending my love in the way of a dove
and through the wind I send you my hugs
and in the entire evening and morning sky
is where you'll see me smile
so please never cry
my spirit won't be bound
and I will always be around

My best friend how I love you so
I hope you never ever go
My best friend you are my all
I hope we never ever fall
Take my hand and we'll walk on

for you have me forever
in life, after, and beyond

Unborn baby weeps
Looking for a bed to sleep
Mama misses you

There is just something
about the way
rain water kisses the grass
that promises us all a better future

Grasping the torch does not mean one holds tight forever
since forever never exists it is that reason exactly
precisely
in due time
that it must be
passed