I wanted to write something for you
For when you're off late at night
But I don't have the inspiration
That's needed for me to write

It seems the only thing that works
To leak what's in my heart
Is to write in verse and rhyme
Though my poems aren't that smart

And honestly I kinda doubt
Whether you like or tolerate
The kind of things I send to you
Which I never do quite right

I wanna tell you everything
That's inside of me contained
But I somehow I must do it right
I don't want to give you pain

But I also fear if I'm too quiet
I'll hate myself some day
And the path I'm taking right now
Seems to go that way

I honestly hope you're right
That I'm walled in what I do
I hope you find some love in me
If/when you break through

But the truth I must confess
Is that I'm full of fear
What if there's nothing inside
And my doubts are real?

Should I break up with you
To save us later pain?
Or should we continue on
And see if I change?

You deserve a better girl
Its who I wanna be
But I can't force my heart
And love you honestly

Everything I've said is sincere
You're wonderful, I swear
From your love to your patience
You're amazing beyond compare

I don't know where I'm going with this
I hate myself for doing this
I'm no better than a peice of ****
I wish you would soon believe it

Missing ego
Burned esteem
Lacking confidence
Insecure extreme
Living lies
Blinded minds
Hearts vandalized
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If only we could see through our lover's eyes.

Screaming silence, deadly calm
Laying here with head on arm
Wishing that it wasn't mine
Hating distance, dreading time.

Crowded out, but so alone
Wanting him to come home
Missing touch, sound, and sight
Waking lonesome ev'ry night.

Painful as the lovers suffer
Would not leave for any other
Hoping, hurting, dreaming, crying
And with happy answers, lying.