Marred in love

Muted and unheard

Maimed by chilblain

Mauled by indifference



Free of my cold chrysalis

Frigid prison uncased

Flawed but thawed

Fully new again

You forget about what you have
Until it all falls apart and you’re desperate
Like calling to God on your deathbed

The one who called every week
When I lost one of those most important
Even though I didn’t really listen

The one who took every call
Who never took a break from my breaking
And told me to keep my head

The one who I never laid eyes on
The stranger on the other end of the phone
Promising it will all be okay

The group of idiots crazy as me
Keeping the insane conversation going
Sometimes nothing is best said

My friends are proof positive
That I have an embarrassment of riches
I forgot that before and won’t again

Sons of the Eagle down to their last morsel
Terrified and exhausted from the fight
Alive in nothing but frozen soul and spirit
Lying within their cold encrusted tombs
Iced to the ground, like trees long dead
No longer understanding why they came
Gone from their families, lost and alone
Round and round the circle has closed
And it all comes down to this, a final push
Die in the snow soldier, and know not why

Amidst the cold and dark spaces between
There I am with my invisible foe
Waiting with bated, visible breath
Find me here and never let me go

When my brain is all anxiety and chaos
Broken thoughts unable to sow
Here I am the shattered man
Find me here and never let me go

Where the mirror mocks my reflection
Disgust of me from head to toe
I’ll freeze in place for you to save me
Find me here and never let me go

I’ve waited for so long to see your face
An unwrapped present behind a bow
The other half of my soul, unfound
Find me here and never let me go

I know you are out there my love
Searching for the path we cannot know
I pray for you to find your way
Find me here and never let me go

She left me for dead
In the house that we built, loved
But I am not dead

Your heart beat races
Nearly fast as mine
Experiments are fun
It’s time to see behind

Let’s lose the excess
Get back to being bare
Turn white into red
We make such a pair

Lay yourself across
Exposed to the air
Take a look at the floor
Wait for your share

I caress what you have
Then pull back slow
Gentle but firm
Here comes the blow

Be loud or be quiet
I hope that you like it
Now that you’re done
It’s my turn to try it

It’s like staring at a wall
A face with no emotion
The mask you hide behind
Away from my devotion

And here I stay
A mess of a man
Pathetic and unwanted
And still your biggest fan

I know you’re there
Wrapped in the cold
I see the cracks
Unleash your soul

And I lie in wait
Forever and in vain
Come back to me
Take away the pain

Break the ice
Set yourself free
Break the ice
And return to me