Sitting here at the keyboard
Fingers soar
Wrists damaged
I try to write something
Anything at all
That could express
What I feel right now

But it's not that simple
There aren't really words
None English,
None German,
None Latin,
That could adequately describe
How broken I am on the inside

I'm not really healing
Like I thought I could
And I'm not moving on
Like I know I should
I'm just burying you
Like I'm used to doing

There's so much confusion
So much pain
So much distrust
I'm ashamed
It took so much for me
To love you the way I did
It took so much
To break down the walls
And let you in..

But I did it
And I trusted you
I believed you
And look now
Here we are
Broken, alone
Torn apart
Maybe not you
But certainly me
Once again
I'm left, weeping

Goodnight
Goodbye
Auf Wiedersehen
I hope I never
Have to see you again

The side of the bed on which you used to lay
Is the spot that, lately, I've chosen to stay

Embracing a body pillow to cope with being lonely
And the knowledge that you simply don't want me

The side of my bed on which you used to lay
Is a place I couldn't stand to see another stay

Those songs now only remind me I'm alone
So I deleted them; SoundCloud is gone

The side of the bed on which you used to lay
Is where I've been these past few days
Still, I chase others away
On your side, I think I'll stay

I fell in love
I fell for you
You had walls
I tried to break through
I'd give you my all
I told you the truth
But in the end
It wasn't enough for you

Words unspoken..
Torn emotions..
I'd run away with you..

But you've chosen..
You've spoken..
I'm not enough for you..

I lost it all
I fall apart
You'll never call
I've sold my own heart
Denied my eyes
Saw a work of art
Now in the end
Shouldn't have let it start

Words unspoken..
Torn emotions..
I broke my walls for you..

But you've chosen..
Yes, you've spoken..
And I'm not enough for you..

When you're down and you're emotionally weak
Remind yourself that there's beauty in every beast
You don't have to be taken down or beaten by defeat
It's inside yourself- the capability to rise to your feet
I try to remind myself every night before I sleep

Sometimes it doesn't work; sometimes I still weap
It's hard to fight the stinging when, into the heart, it creeps
It can be so intense you may feel your world freeze
Still, don't let your legs buckle; don't fall to your knees
Your will is more powerful- this I truly believe

It's unwise to depend on others to provide your relief
Greed is abundant; I feel that's plain to see
You must begin to love yourself to actually be free
Discover a method to let your inner emotions breathe
And grant yourself freedom to let your soul speak

Things may be hard; yes, life may seem bleak
Just understand that there's beauty in every beast
Don't doubt that, in every human, there is magnificent strength
Take flight- let the struggles grace you with elegant wings
Undoubtedly, *there's beauty in every beast

Becoming enough for you still isn't possible in the slightest..

Even when I'm sleeping and I'm dreaming at my wildest..

You claim to no longer have any love left to be harnessed..

Of all the pills I've swallowed, this has been one of the hardest..

"There's a light at the end of the tunnel"
It seems that this tunnel may have no end

Worship false idols and wear empty titles
It seems that this may be the trend

Hate in diplomacy; drown in monotony
It seems I may break and not bend

There's a blown light at the end of this tunnel
It seems I may force it to end

Maybe I've had an increase in confidence
Or perhaps this is something that I just think is common sense*

You see, the only thing I expect is respect and curtesy
I give it; thus, I expect to receive in return common decency
Don't act sincere then suddenly change on me
I've noticed that it happens constantly
And that's something I just can't stand to see
What I'm asking for is simply sincerity
Just be you around everyone and also around me
It isn't that difficult, honestly
Though, I've learned that to most people it seems to be

I've learned that the Real really are a rarity
It's unfortunate to have that type of clarity
I'll treat you the same way you treat me
I'll always stay the same, how I was initially
And all I expect is respect and always sincerity
That's common decency
At least that's I how I see it, you see
But I see some people don't see it like me
And I think that's just a tragedy

Eventually, we'll all have to resign.
Because, no matter how hard we try,
And no matter how hard we grind,
We can't stop the natural progression of time.

We're painted illusions
To give us delusions
Of immortality
A lack of morality
This mentality
The new reality

Eventually, we'll show signs of age and decay.
You can't hold on to a moment; you can't relive a day.
Simply put, don't let your time go to waste
And don't waste it trying to live it in haste

I read some old poems today
And I remembered you
I recall that letting things slip away
Was something I thought I'd never make it through

I read some old poems today
And I remembered us
I realized I couldn't let you stay
Things were so bitter, we didn't even desire lust

I read some old poems today
And I remembered you
Then I had the epiphany
That I had actually forgotten you