my soul, is a void
that will shrink up inside me
I am close to losing myself entirely.

I look into the mirror
just a hollow spirit
with a solitary soul trapped inside me.

I was so caught up in the art of giving away
That I misplaced myself in the cardboard boxes at the end of the driveway

''What type of woman do you prefer?''
i was asked.
All of a sudden i was describing you

It’s been another year
of loving you
of hating you
and trying to forgive you.

I stared at the wall for hours
Wondering what I did to make you stop loving me
Wondering why I could never be enough
Thinking about you and her
What does she have that I don’t?
I gave you every part of me
I even created a part of both of us
But you didnt want him either
Our child was unwanted by you
My heart was broken
Why can’t I ever be enough?

It is life that is shooting at me from
The underground
The souls begging for forgiveness
All comas exposed
Until they haunt you,
Burn you out alive
In a ring of fire
In a countless sky
Such breathless world we live in
We do not know about.

In the wake of darkness
I could pick you out of a crowd
Just by the smell of your scent
Because it's my favorite perfume

I could pick you out of a crowd
With no doubt in my mind
Because it's my favorite perfume
You wear it all the time

With no doubt in my mind
I would wear it when you no longer do
You wear it all the time
I will not ever stop taking it in

I know you are my mother
Just by the smell of your scent
No matter where I am
Even in the wake of darkness