Why does one word hold so much weight
Once you say you do,
The permanence of it rings in silence
But when you take it back it hurts so much
When I close my eyes I feel it to my core
And when someone says they don’t
Anymore
It causes a pit in your stomach
Lie to me and say you do
Say that word to me
So we can be perfect before the end
I know it’s close, we get so close every time
I see it in your eyes
And then you stop again
I die inside
A little more each time
But it’s all worth the pain
And I continue to say it in vain

The time we spend on this earth
Is fleeting
We waste so much time on the unimportant
We care too much about frivolous things
We don’t care about others
We encourage children to be selfless yet selfish
The media glorifies the selfish as well
We go through life with a blind eye turned
So many of us have never learned
How important it is to stick together
Every man for himself is the way we live
Yet without each other we have nothing to give
Someday we will all be dead
And there will be others living here instead
Greedy and selfish
Is how we will be remembered
This is not the life I wish to live, but there’s nothing I can do to change it
this is our life now.

Your heart
I see it bleeding
Raw and beaten
By a lover you gave your all to
I see glimpses of what she had
And I’m jealous of the love you gave to her
Am I not worthy of your love
Your all
I give you my all in spurts but I take it back
For fear of hurting like I have before
Crawling and crying on a cold bathroom floor
Trying to understand why
Years later in retrospect I realize
It was never me, it was you
I see it in your eyes sometimes, how
You know you could love me
But you build the wall every time it starts to fall
But I fall
And fall I do
Over and over into you
Because the things that you do
Just make it all worth the pain
So here I sit once again
The other girl
The lesser one
The one who does not get all of you
And I wish I had known you before you were broken
Because I’d have loved you so hard
None of this would have been a thought in your mind
Rewind doesn’t exist in life
But give me a chance to show you what you’ve missed

Deep dope soul
You are so much more
Than some guy i know
You’ve taught me so much
About myself
You helped me grow
You may be the one true
Love I’ll ever know
Through your eyes I saw
a glimpse of a girl
I was long ago
Even though you can’t be mine
I can’t let you go
I’ve seen the love in your eyes
That you try to hide
And keep pushed down inside
I don’t think I’d even know
What to do with it
Honestly
If you were to express your feelings
I think it would be too much
But here I am longing
For your touch
I don’t know what I want
It’s so overwhelming yet comforting,
I try not to love you but it’s a fight
Can we be together every night?
I swear this will be it
We could be the ones
Together
Or
You’ll have too much of me
And then not give a ****
But hours later you’ll cross my mind
We always wish for one more time

Do you ever want to kiss these lips
Again
Grab me and pull me in close
Again
Feel the heat of our skin on skin
Again
Look so deep in my eyes you get lost
Again
Can you ever forget how it felt
Again
When we touch and we kiss and we ****
Again
I want to see the light dance in your eyes
Again
While you make me laugh and smile
Again
Can we hold hands and enjoy time just us
Again
Can you swallow your pride long enough
Again
Will you ever give in to my love
Again
Can we please just be friends with no strings
Again
I want to try to make plans
Again
Will you promise to not make up excuses
Again
I promise to not say those three words
Again

I closed my eyes
And you were on my mind again
My lips on yours
Your tongue in my mouth
Heat between us
My hand in your hair
Yours all over me
I open my eyes and I’m driving
Down the backroads
I shouldn’t be so deep in thought
But when my mind is full
All roads seem to lead back to you
Or If I’m mad or feeling blue
Even in my seething rage
Or when my heart begins to race
You put a smile on my face
I’ve never met anyone who can bring me back
From the throes of a panic attack
With a laugh and a smile
Please stick around a while
You do things to me
The way our bodies move
When we are alone together
And all I want in that moment
Is you
Inside of me
And I close my eyes..
Your lips on mine
One more time

Like magnets
Our push and pull depends on
Which way we turn
Lately you’re the one I find
When there’s something on my mind
You’re my weakness
My strength
You’re my happy
My sad
I’m your passion and heat,
Your daydream, I think
A drink takes the edge off
When we’re hot or we’re cold
I wonder if this feeling will ever get old
Nothing changes life but time
That’s what we both need
But when our eyes meet
Or our lips lock
That rush makes me wish
It could be today
And I get carried away
In so many songs
That always seem
To end up being about you