the constant war in my head couldn't bring you back,
what could i do to bring you back?
you're so far away from me
yet so close.
if i reached my hand out to you,
would you take it?
can i turn back time to when you were here with me?

I left your broken hopes like a discarded toy,
I realise that I was toxic,
Infecting all our dreams that we now hate,
I realise that I was toxic.

I left your shadow running on her own,
I realise that I was toxic,
Infecting all your innocence with mistakes,
I realise that I was toxic.

I left the taste of poison on your lips,
I realise that I was toxic,
Infecting all our love that we now hate,
I realise that I was toxic.

Scare away, my dullest days
Staring at a blank page, hoping for a rescue
I'm inside, my lonely eyes
Staring at the brighter side, feeling like I'm lost sometimes

Breathing in, the leaves outside
Maybe I can shine as bright, as the stars that make up half our nights
Believe me when, I tell my friends,
You're the center to the maze I made, when I locked my heart into the cage

I go back to, my safe room, and hide away until the sun comes
Shinning, onto, my faith.
Because I believe, I believe in, you and me.

I'm not sure what kind of person would prefer broken bones to a broken heart but im that kind of person.

I watch them as they go,

flow down my cheeks

to my pillows

to my floor

making a puddle so i can see
my imperfect reflection staring back at me