I'm just an addict
Overdramatic
Shooting up with melancholy

And I'm hopeless
Because I'm a romantic
Which is no way to be
I can't seem to find my feet
Or take a seat
Droning on and on
For a lost cause

with all the freedom you're entitled to
But I'd never take that away
So what's the reason why I stay
Your slave in my own self-made chains

Finding self esteem
Finding purpose in your every need

Because you are suicidal
In denial
And shooting up with melancholy

If Earth could speak
Would it believe
The relationship with the human race is
Parasitism

If Earth could speak
Would it say
It is suffering
Dying

If Earth could speak
Would it ask
For help

Are humans a burden to the Earth
Or is the Earth a burden to humans

Destruction is needed for creation
Or is there something much bigger at play?

Bigger than sea, space, and partnerships

The earth speaks
The universe speaks


Human consciousness


Be kind to Earth
But never undermine existence

I wish we could end this
quick and painless
like pulling a bandage
off an old wound
but our scars have yet to heal
and while it might be quick
it won’t be painless

love is many things
but never painless

The air falls slowly to my feet
My lungs losing oxygen every step i take
I'm frightened by the choices I make
Do I take a step
On hope of breathing again
Or will I suffer from suffocation

Will the trees know I'm falling
Will they watch and shed their dew
Clouds come rolling over mountains
To tumble along with me
Maybe to cover up
The ****** of gravity

The air along my feet
Blood stained eyes gloss over
Looking at the deep blood moon
As it begins to get closer
I want to grab it
And end its suffering
I do not want the moon to share my fate
Or the stars will grow to hate
Why they sparkle
And fade to a galaxy
With no gravity
So they can know
The reason why they glow

And I will fade all the same
Because my lungs have forgotten
How to breath
And my hope
No longer knows how to float
Because gravity told lies
And my air doesn't want to listen
My eyes dont pay attention
To the ground coming rapidly
My legs no longer have the will to move
My mind has nothing else to lose

Depression understood gravity
And used it on my body and soul
The sun will come tomorrow
I can feel it in my bones
I can feel it in muscles
As I slowly get up

And breath again

If only you could see
how
    much
                
            you've


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                         me.

I'm finally free from your torture
Released from your emotional roller coaster
Your emotional chains that restrained me
Yet you had no idea you had done it
You don't know what it was like...

Every second was an ache
Every breath I had was for you
Every piece of me needed you
I survived off of the idea of you
Yet you were nowhere within miles
Every song on the radio teased me
I always thought you may be thinking of me
You don't know what it was like...

Literally every fiber in my being called your name
Every street sign, every dream..
It was unbearable. It was unfathomable.

All I wanted was to escape but I didn't know how
All I wanted was you, but I didn't really want you
I just wanted you to love me
The way you promised you would
The way I imagined it could be
The way I had always read about as a little girl
The way they showed me it should be in the movies
The way you swore it could be...

And even though I forgave you, I still craved you
In this way...
For the longest time
What felt like years in your restraints
I wasted so much time wrapped up in you.
You were impossible to get over

But I can't explain just how good it feels to have my mind back
To feel my soul again
With the freedom to love
How great it feels to own my life back!