It's the first time I feel my heart is whole, unbroken and full

I am proud that I pushed myself for so long, and finally exceeded this glass ceiling that I unconsciously created.

I reached a place of self actualization

A place I thought was made up for traumatized people to aspire to.

I feel that for once my heart is actually mine.

That my heart is home

Home for me not the people that abandoned me.

What a feeling.

I learned my worth

And I feel free

*Thank you.

This is my goodbye, I guess.
How did I get here.
Maybe all of the stress?

Or maybe all the pain
That just won't go away.
The losses with few gains
While no one would stay.

But maybe I'm wrong
Because some people stayed,
But they'll leave before long.
im just not worth the wait.

They say some people change.
And are gone and never seen.
Just not in the same way.
This, I thought was mean.

But now I realize it's true.
And this is my goodbye.
Because my soul is simply through.
Not strong enough to fly.

truth is,
i love you for all the wrong reasons;
they billow up in smoke when you smile anyway

and when you touch my skin,
it burns with a heat i long to feel over again

when you're gone,
i miss you;
when you're here i never want you to leave
and when we have to say goodbye,
it does something strange to me

truth is,
i love you for all the wrong reasons,
just keep smiling
so i don't remember what they are

kisses, laughter, heartbeat,
fast, faster, . . . breathe.
Stars are thrown
out of order,
frisky looks and
destined lifes.

yelling, sadness, silence,
quiet, quieter, . . . breathe.
Stars are smashed
out of sight,
scornful looks and
destined lifes.

WHEN THE LOVEN IS THROUGH

I won’t deny I haven’t been in this position before
Sometimes it meant less sometimes it meant more
So don’t be offended of I ask is it just for the night
I’ve said so many goodbyes by the morning light

AND WILL YOU KISS ME – WHEN THE LOVEN IS THROUGH
   WILL YOU HOLD ME CLOSE TO YOU
AND WILL YOU TOUCH ME – WHEN THE LOVEN IS THROUGH
   WILL YOU BE THERE – WHEN THE LOVEN PART IS THROUGH
I want to trust again -  I so want to feel love again

So many times my love’s (has) been left in pieces of the floor
So don’t be offended if I seem to be unsure
And give me a reason to believe it’s not just for the night
I’ve said so many goodbyes by the morning light

AND WILL YOU KISS ME – WHEN THE LOVEN IS THROUGH
   WILL YOU HOLD ME CLOSE TO YOU
AND WILL YOU TOUCH ME – WHEN THE LOVEN IS THROUGH
   WILL YOU BE THERE – WHEN THE LOVEN PART IS THROUGH
I want to trust again -  I so want to feel love again

BRIDGE
How long does loneliness last
                 When should you take another chance
You only lose if yesterday
Takes all your tomorrows away

      By VjKelly ©1991 vincentjkelly@yahoo.com

When The Great Bard wrote his epic plays
America was the new frontier
A widening world of wonder.
But now we look with eagle-eyed telescopes
Out into the depths of space
Beyond the beyond
Back through countless miles and aeons
To Thirteen point eight billion years ago
When our universe appeared.

Send your minds-eye through swirling sandstorm fogs,
Each grain a galaxy
Each galaxy a beach
Of stars.

Most stars are circled
By endless varieties
Of worlds.
There must be Earths out there,
Again too many to number
Making our own a single speck
In that endless night.

The saddest thing, of course,
Is that all these worlds are out of reach,
Unless we find a wormhole
Or that fiction “Star Trek” comes to pass.

Without some warp drive
We are marooned on this island
We call Earth.
Yet we can look
And think:
Imagine what it’s like out there
On sister Earths
In jungles,
Up mountains
And on sky-blue seas.

Paul Butters