there's not a cloud today
just a sky of blue
as the sun shines bright
it feels so new
as you walk down the street
you can see smiles around
it's looks like
everyone came to town
to enjoy the summer day

A true friend accepts you as who you are
But also helps you to become who you should be

It takes courage to turn your back on the shore
Of a luring promise
The safe land of strain and sacrifice
Leading you astray on an empty quiet
But the place that you seek is an sea of delight
and only a joyful heart
will make a port in you
The heaven of happiness

I locked Myself In My Room
And cried Tears To Form A Sea
And soon I realized that we were more then friends.
That we were meant to be

you tell me to quiet down cause
my opinions make me less beautiful
but I was not made with a fire in my belly
so I could be put out
I was not made with a lightness on my tongue
so I could be easy to swallow
I was made heavy
half blade and half silk
difficult to forget and not easy
for the mind to follow

You get hurt by people you don't even like
What you should know
You're wasting your emotion when you should be listening
cold wind blow holding hands with someone new
By the big old fellow ocean

I'll draw you a picture
I'll draw it with a twist
I'll draw it with a razor
I'll draw it on my wrist
If I do it correctly
A red fountain will appear
To take away my pain
To wash away my fear

I'm in love with a girl.
She is so beautiful and so amazing
But she is also one of my good friends
It's hard to see her everyday
Knowing that I love her.
I hope she see's this I want her to know she make me happy she makes me who I am

Wish I could disappear
Been in the worst major depressive episode of my life this past month. I am triggered easily and I have so much anger and frustration and sadness I don’t know where to channel it all. I’ve lost 15 pounds according to my scale. Wondering if maybe I’ll just eventually shrivel up to nothing and disappear. What a relief it would be. #Depression #Suicide

I wrote your name in the sky
But the wind blew it away
I wrote your name in the sand
But the waves washed it away
I wrote your name in my heart
And forever it will stay

Skin Isn't Paper...
Don't Cut It
Face Isn't A Mask...
Don't Cover It
Size Isn't A Book...
Don't Judge It
Life Isn't A Film...
Don't end it
Your Beautiful Just The Way You Are

The kids these days are cutting
They smile but feel nothing

The teens these days are starving
Their invisible wounds are scarring

They all are filled with self-hate
Because they feel like a waste of space

They lie awake all night crying
They say they're fine but are lying

Each day they feel like hiding
Because each night they dream about dying

They all fear they're seeking attention
Fighting a battle they dare not mention

But the parents never wonder
And the teachers never question
That maybe all the kids these days
Are suffering from depression

When you can't breathe in their lies
When they laugh at your demise
When everybody kills your dreams
When nothing is really as it seems
When your to weak to continue living
When you can't bear the world, It's unforgiving
When everybody leaves your side
There's only one word... LET ME DIE

love is not blind it sees more and not less but because it sees more it wants to hear less

Mirror, Mirror, on my wall, I just want to be thin pretty and tall

Mirror, Mirror, If I change my hair, maybe someone will start to care?

Mirror, Mirror, If I starve myself at least I'll be beautiful... Forget about my health

Mirror, Mirror, If I cut my wrist will I feel like I exist?

Mirror,  Mirror, don't you see me
What you show is ruining me.

My heart is for the loss I lost
The key is what paid the cost
I sit here staring at the sky

I cried myself to sleep last night
I had suicidal thoughts
Does anyone care?????
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I restarted my medication recently because I hit the worst depression episode of my life. It got so bad that I had planned out, with cold, hard rationale, how I was going to **** myself.

The medication is helping somewhat. But it's also making me feel numb. I don't feel positive emotions anymore, if I feel anything it's the depression. I feel like an empty husk floating through life.

I don't want to live like this, I don't want to take the medication if this is how it's going to make me feel. However, I can't fight this alone. I don't know what to do.

I was looking at old pics of ours.
The memories we shared
The way we used to share our life
That way in which you cared
I want those days back in our lives
Without you I can't suffice
Coz I miss you my old best friend
Please come back to me

Old friends remain in life. Like a pillar of support, The part you played in my life. The way you strived, For me no one would do, I really love you coz you were my true friend. Life is cool with you because you don't pretend

A knife to the wrist was her way out
No one ever did hear her shouts

Razor Blade, Razor Blade
Let's Sing A Song
Let's Erase The Pain
Even Though It's Wrong
I'll Press You Against My Skin
And Wait For The Blood To Come
My Eyes Full With Tears
The ***** Deed Is Done
The Pain Is Gone
Even If It's Only For Now
As I Smile To Myself
And I Take A Little Bow
Razor Blade, Razor Blade
We Sang Our Little Song
And Now Your Time Is Done
Was It Really That Wrong

I seem happy, right?
You see no cuts on my wrists
Only the smile on my lips
You hear me laugh, You see me smile


But did you take time to look into my eyes?
Did you see the emptiness, the darkness?
Did you check my hips
Darling, if only you opened up your eyes
You could see...
I was dying inside

Because of my darkness I shine.
Because of my scars I am beautiful.

It's getting bad again, no one cares right.

Train tracks and train lines is what I see
No obvious sign to stop me
One line crossed,
Another one stepped over
One gone right,
The other gone left
Lost in direction
No comfort or protection
Two more lines crossed
Another stepped over
Red rain drops now fall,
I'm now able to see them all
One more line to cross
No more to step over
Time to watch the rain fall
Fall on to each and every track
Train tracks and train line is all I see

The monsters my parents warned me about when I was younger weren't under my bed or in my closet but in my head

Dear whoever reads this,

There is nothing for me here.I don’t want to go on. I didn’t mean to hurt anyone. Please believe me. I love you all so very much. And I don’t want to hurt you anymore.

Everyone say that you are meant to feel safe whenever you go to school. I don’t I have to work into expecting to get bullied and get **** written on the wall about me. I feel like no one loves me not even my own family. Death doesn’t even want me and that’s saying something.

I wish it was just as easy as saying One, Two, Three and I’d be gone.

I made so many memories with my friends and my family.
But this period of time has just been so ****. My family has started to fight more and has started to hate me more. As I sit in class wondering what I’m going to do at recess. Oh no that’s right I have to hide in a ******* bathroom to eat my food because I’m afraid what people are going to think about me.  

It *****… It really does… I’ve put my family through a lot… Maybe that’s why they hate me because I’m a fat, ugly, waste of space that no one wants.

I hate being judged I hate not having clothes that fit me and having to wear the same clothes for at least 2 weeks straight. I’m always going to school and getting letters home saying you owe the school more than $800. Dad says he is going to sort it out he’ll find the money but he never will. I’ve had all these thoughts pile up in my head now that I can’t even think anymore… I want it to stop.
I need it to stop cutting myself everyday is not just enough I need to go deep or hang myself or I could try overdosing again. Whatever I decide I know it’s for the best… I’ll miss you guys so much…Things just seemed to go too wrong too many times

Goodbye,
Hannah Field

Dear Dad,
I’m sorry I continue to disappoint you, I’m sorry I’ve changed. I wish we could rewind. I love you death and I will still love you after. But I just couldn’t do it anymore. Everyday became harder and harder(hey at least there will be two positives to my death your smokes will still always be there and you don’t have to put up with me always getting suspended and fighting you) I know you can’t understand and I don’t expect you to. And I don’t know what else to tell you expect I really am sorry but I know you won’t believe me. I’m sorry…

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place,
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you're screaming?

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No, you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like (What it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No, you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Death is only the beginning is all she could say
as she cried sliding the blade
tears rolling down her fragile face
she was beaten hard out of her grace
heartbroken words written on her goodbye
This is her goodbye

Is it better to be hated
For what you are
Than to be loved
For what you are not

It's Sad
Knowing That
I Love Others
More Than
I Love Myself
I Hate To See Others
In Pain
But When It
Comes To
Me
"I'm Fine'

Sitting all alone with a broken heart
broken hopes broken spirits
everything is broken
why did you ruin everything?
what did I do wrong
I wanted to give my love
But all I did was lose my best- friend
and everything I love

Why did you try to **** yourself...
You told me to be happy...

We stopped checking under our bed for monsters
When we realized they were inside us

She falls down to her knees
So no one can help her up
Because she thinks she is not worth saving

Suicide doesn't take away the pain it gives it to someone else

When I saw your body for the first time
I realized how war torn you were
how many you battles you lost
on your wrists
on your thighs
how many fires occurred
on your sides
your lovely sides
and how many times I told you
I loved you because I do
because no matter how many times
you have lost the battle
you will always win the war

I loved her
but then she cut to deep
And then she was fighting for her life
She lost
Now i don't wanna be with anyone else
Only her,
so i just plan one more week
Then we'll be together forever
Me and my love
How stupid she was
I don't want to go so early
But she is my life
I miss you baby

I have nobody except you
But sometimes you just made me feel like
I'm just another girl
That kiss and tell
But ****
I need to talk to someone
Can't you see
That I have nobody
That I'm lonely
That I only accompanied
By my own thoughts
And sometimes
There Trying To **** You

A broken mirror
A bleeding fist
A sliver blade against my wrist
Tears falling down on lips UnKissed
Ignore her and she won't exist
She's not the kind you will come to miss

Roses are red
Violets are blue
****, I don't know how to continue bye

Silly little girl
Don't fool yourself
They've seen your scars
Just don't want to help
Little do they know
How much it could change
With three little words
" Are You Okay"

Your absence has gone through me like thread through a needle.
Everything I do is stitched with a color.

















Red...