there's not a cloud today
just a sky of blue
as the sun shines bright
it feels so new
as you walk down the street
you can see smiles around
it's looks like
everyone came to town
to enjoy the summer day

A true friend accepts you as who you are
But also helps you to become who you should be

It takes courage to turn your back on the shore
Of a luring promise
The safe land of strain and sacrifice
Leading you astray on an empty quiet
But the place that you seek is an sea of delight
and only a joyful heart
will make a port in you
The heaven of happiness

I locked Myself In My Room
And cried Tears To Form A Sea
And soon I realized that we were more then friends.
That we were meant to be

you tell me to quiet down cause
my opinions make me less beautiful
but I was not made with a fire in my belly
so I could be put out
I was not made with a lightness on my tongue
so I could be easy to swallow
I was made heavy
half blade and half silk
difficult to forget and not easy
for the mind to follow

You get hurt by people you don't even like
What you should know
You're wasting your emotion when you should be listening
cold wind blow holding hands with someone new
By the big old fellow ocean

I'll draw you a picture
I'll draw it with a twist
I'll draw it with a razor
I'll draw it on my wrist
If I do it correctly
A red fountain will appear
To take away my pain
To wash away my fear

I'm in love with a girl.
She is so beautiful and so amazing
But she is also one of my good friends
It's hard to see her everyday
Knowing that I love her.
I hope she see's this I want her to know she make me happy she makes me who I am

Wish I could disappear
Been in the worst major depressive episode of my life this past month. I am triggered easily and I have so much anger and frustration and sadness I don’t know where to channel it all. I’ve lost 15 pounds according to my scale. Wondering if maybe I’ll just eventually shrivel up to nothing and disappear. What a relief it would be. #Depression #Suicide

I wrote your name in the sky
But the wind blew it away
I wrote your name in the sand
But the waves washed it away
I wrote your name in my heart
And forever it will stay

Skin Isn't Paper...
Don't Cut It
Face Isn't A Mask...
Don't Cover It
Size Isn't A Book...
Don't Judge It
Life Isn't A Film...
Don't end it
Your Beautiful Just The Way You Are

The kids these days are cutting
They smile but feel nothing

The teens these days are starving
Their invisible wounds are scarring

They all are filled with self-hate
Because they feel like a waste of space

They lie awake all night crying
They say they're fine but are lying

Each day they feel like hiding
Because each night they dream about dying

They all fear they're seeking attention
Fighting a battle they dare not mention

But the parents never wonder
And the teachers never question
That maybe all the kids these days
Are suffering from depression

When you can't breathe in their lies
When they laugh at your demise
When everybody kills your dreams
When nothing is really as it seems
When your to weak to continue living
When you can't bear the world, It's unforgiving
When everybody leaves your side
There's only one word... LET ME DIE

love is not blind it sees more and not less but because it sees more it wants to hear less

Mirror, Mirror, on my wall, I just want to be thin pretty and tall

Mirror, Mirror, If I change my hair, maybe someone will start to care?

Mirror, Mirror, If I starve myself at least I'll be beautiful... Forget about my health

Mirror, Mirror, If I cut my wrist will I feel like I exist?

Mirror,  Mirror, don't you see me
What you show is ruining me.

My heart is for the loss I lost
The key is what paid the cost
I sit here staring at the sky

I cried myself to sleep last night
I had suicidal thoughts
Does anyone care?????
NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I restarted my medication recently because I hit the worst depression episode of my life. It got so bad that I had planned out, with cold, hard rationale, how I was going to **** myself.

The medication is helping somewhat. But it's also making me feel numb. I don't feel positive emotions anymore, if I feel anything it's the depression. I feel like an empty husk floating through life.

I don't want to live like this, I don't want to take the medication if this is how it's going to make me feel. However, I can't fight this alone. I don't know what to do.

I was looking at old pics of ours.
The memories we shared
The way we used to share our life
That way in which you cared
I want those days back in our lives
Without you I can't suffice
Coz I miss you my old best friend
Please come back to me

Old friends remain in life. Like a pillar of support, The part you played in my life. The way you strived, For me no one would do, I really love you coz you were my true friend. Life is cool with you because you don't pretend

A knife to the wrist was her way out
No one ever did hear her shouts

Razor Blade, Razor Blade
Let's Sing A Song
Let's Erase The Pain
Even Though It's Wrong
I'll Press You Against My Skin
And Wait For The Blood To Come
My Eyes Full With Tears
The ***** Deed Is Done
The Pain Is Gone
Even If It's Only For Now
As I Smile To Myself
And I Take A Little Bow
Razor Blade, Razor Blade
We Sang Our Little Song
And Now Your Time Is Done
Was It Really That Wrong

I seem happy, right?
You see no cuts on my wrists
Only the smile on my lips
You hear me laugh, You see me smile


But did you take time to look into my eyes?
Did you see the emptiness, the darkness?
Did you check my hips
Darling, if only you opened up your eyes
You could see...
I was dying inside

Because of my darkness I shine.
Because of my scars I am beautiful.

It's getting bad again, no one cares right.

Train tracks and train lines is what I see
No obvious sign to stop me
One line crossed,
Another one stepped over
One gone right,
The other gone left
Lost in direction
No comfort or protection
Two more lines crossed
Another stepped over
Red rain drops now fall,
I'm now able to see them all
One more line to cross
No more to step over
Time to watch the rain fall
Fall on to each and every track
Train tracks and train line is all I see

Roses are red, Violets are blue
sugar is sweet and prehaps so are you
But the roses are wilted and the violets are dead
The sugar bowls empty your wrists are stained red
The sun isn't shining, the sky isn't clear
there's no sliver lining cause your no longer here
Rain keeps on pouring, theres no end in sight
you're laying there frozen, so far from light
Your beautys unreal, your smile the sun
but time can't be turned nor your actions undone

They say follow your heart... But what happens if your heart is in a million pieces what piece do you follow

Is it better to be hated
For what you are
Than to be loved
For what you are not

My silence is just another word for my pain

Maybe in the world of Emojis
They laugh at their ignorance
Every time we send smiley faces
with sad intentions
We no longer laugh like humans
we just imagine laughter

I want to die but no one will let me. Please let me go

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I really like garlic bread
I don't know how to rhyme

Roses are red
Violets are blue
****, I don't know how to continue bye

Sitting all alone with a broken heart
broken hopes broken spirits
everything is broken
why did you ruin everything?
what did I do wrong
I wanted to give my love
But all I did was lose my best- friend
and everything I love

Silly little girl
Don't fool yourself
They've seen your scars
Just don't want to help
Little do they know
How much it could change
With three little words
" Are You Okay"

Sometimes you tell someone to never call you again, and then the phone rings and you hope it's them

I wonder what would everyone do if I killed myself.
Got it they would all laugh and jump up and down because I killed myself

Living with mental illness makes almost every single day a battle. Will we wake up and handle our stress or will our brains completely derail and make us want to give up? Will today be a good day or will we fall closer to rock bottom again?

We KNOW we have everything to live for (kids, family, friends, great jobs, etc.) and we ARE grateful for those amazing fortunes...but something always haunts us. We are always fighting to stay on top and to control how our emotions flow out. There is always a fear, however small and maybe even subconscious, that today could be the day that breaks us or that we fall back down from however far we've climbed. Its a constant, conscious effort to survive, let alone thrive. Some days are easier than others. Treatment and/or therapy helps, but we're never "cured". The demon can be tamed but never exorcised. This is us.

We are mothers, fathers, friends, coworkers, siblings, sons, daughters. We smile through pain. We cling to the smallest hopes and continue to climb.

So show some compassion. Give hugs and high fives when you're having a good day. Check on your friends who may be slipping. Help them up. Show them you care, don't just tell them. You could be the light in someone's darkness that brings them back to life. #Depression #Anxiety #Suicide #MentalHealth #CheckInWithMe

Your absence has gone through me like thread through a needle.
Everything I do is stitched with a color.

















Red...

Darling,
The world's not really against you
The only thing that is against you
is yourself...

The rain got sad
when they shut themselves
in doors
but he
found a companion
in the little boy
strapped heavily
in books
who made his vocation his consumption
of every puddle

I think of my best friend and know that she is the person who will be there for me, even when I can't be here for myself who will CHEER me to my greatest heights and who will console me when I've fallen down. She will STAND UP for me and LIE DOWN beside me. She will FORGIVE me when I've hurt her and will occasionally, even bite her tongue when she could have easily said " I TOLD YOU SO"

We're suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids suicide is not the answer.

My depression get the best of me
Long nights I don’t rest or sleep
Jaw tight as I compress my teeth
Digest the devil pressin me
Repress the stress that rest in me
Death don’t ever pester me
Life brings on all the pressure see
I can’t even measure the little pleasures
why can’t I just Rest In Peace
I strive to never take my life
Hear voices from a gun and knife
Fake light for when my dark nights strike
But **** the light, give me a ladder
I’d rather fight and climb back to the surface
Search through all my pain for purpose
Learn to deal with the hurt and worthless
Help others in similar circumstances
Gives them chances in advance
To never glance on suicidal’s dance
#f ;ghter