I've placed a shield around me,
To hide my inner shame.
There are demons found inside me,
That I never seem to tame.

My mind is an asylum,
Where I live in my restraints.
It keeps me bound in silence,
And my essence it does taint.

I feel alone and undeserving,
Of the me I keep inside.
It's for my own protection,
So I can never be despised.

If they reject my performance,
It has no affect on me.
Because it's not me they hate,
But the me I pretend to be.

Possession
Of my mind
Of my heart
Tears of loneliness
Thinking of you
Your rejected love
My rejected thoughts
Of you and I together
Memories of other times
When you would smile at me
And I felt waves of passion
But that day has come and gone
You left me here
To bare the weight of this pain
The longing to see you one last time
The possession of my body and my courage
To hate to love you