Keaton Rutz

Keaton Rutz Aug 2014

The sky is so dark.
It has been nothing but bright
after being so ******* dark,
for so long.

The dark is so heavy.
It has been nothing but light
after being so ******* heavy,
for so very long.

I feel alone.
Lately I've been surrounded by love
after feeling so ******* alone,
for so very ******* long.

I miss you.
I've been so busy
that I didn't really get a chance,
for what feels like forever, but I guess it's been 6 months.

I hope you're doing okay.
Sometimes it really ***** out loud
that I can't stop loving anyone
I've ever once felt love for, but I wouldn't trade it for anything.

I love you.
I hope you do too; love yourself that is.
I hope that the job is what you want, if only for now.
Sweet dreams.

I'm always looking for the right way to describe how I feel.
Felt a pang in my heart; could be clinical depression, but I feel really good now.
I always feel great once I can find the words.

#love #words #death #hope

Keaton Rutz Aug 2014

Perfect Blue

Doctor discussing with detective.
Patient mumbling to themselves.
"Yes, I am an actor."

Cut to rewind, of producers watching take in post.
Rewind actually fast forward in post, watching alternate lines of same scene.

Cut to alternate scene as if it was reality.

Doctor discussing with detective.
Patient mumbling to themselves.
"Yes, I am a model."

"CUT! That's a wrap!"

#reality #blue #perfect #nightmare #fantasy #fuel

Keaton Rutz Aug 2014

Okay so there's this girl at work

I don't know her name,
but I plan on learning it.
She has glasses,
and looks at me
in that way.
****** or not,
I feel a pull,
or is it a push?
Either way,
I feel a loss of words,
and the potential for coffee.
Before I get ahead of myself,
and start crossing that thin line
between
fantasy and reality
I'll make a cute friend first.

Seriously though she's p cute.

#words #girl #coffee #work

Keaton Rutz Jul 2014

Samurai

I have always called
myself a wandering knight.
I still don't know why.

I always wanted
a sword I can call my own.
It's pretty odd I know.

Is it the romance
in various media?
I couldn't say really.

Maybe the freedom
is what really gets me.
Why did they choose it?

Honor? Truth? Rad swords?
The women? The blood? Nah.
Perhaps the title.

To be known as one.
To be lightning, and fire.
To be Samurai.

Something I've been thinking about lately, and haiku cause my favourite type of poem.

#haiku #samurai

Keaton Rutz Jul 2014

Lightning

I am the rain transformed.
I am more than light, and speed.
I am deafening, but silent.

I am quicker than most.
I am louder than most.
I am brightest, when I arrive.

I move from ground to sky,
from sky to ground,
and even between the clouds.

I am in your veins,
orbiting your atoms,
making your thoughts.

I am jagged, and beautiful.
I am love, and death.
I am the rain transformed.

Inspired by Metal Gear Solid 4.

#love #death #lightning

Keaton Rutz Jul 2014

Closure

a Gestalt principle
of organization
holding that there is an innate tendency
to perceive incomplete objects as complete
and to close
or fill gaps
and to perceive asymmetric stimuli
as symmetric

It might not be the word, but ******* if it ain't perfect,

#word #perfect #closure

Keaton Rutz Jul 2014

Dreams

Had a dream about a girl
and some time travel
but only at the end.

Enemy was a hierarchical deal (like bees);
started as a corporation,
then began the nightmare fuel,
only
this was not a nightmare.

She had gone back before was the twist.
Obviously she lost then too,
so I figure
this had to have been the second time.
Although who knows
right?

There was a word,
a phrase;
"mobility loops".
Ain't quite right, is it?

The word that fits...
It's on the tip of my tongue.
Cinch? Craton? Catalectic?
Does it even start with c?
Maybe I need to make up a word.

Post dream thoughts.

#in #dreams #somewhere #nightmares #between