I would say I'm sorry for my out burst but...

Would you rather me honest or lie?
7 people raise hand for lie
3 people raise hand for truth

Okay well I'm just gonna say this

I'm not as sorry I should be...NO
I'm not sorry at all.

This year was suppose to be a great Christmas but how is it suppose to great if you got girls down the street being gang ***** and you can't do a thing about it.

Or better yet how is it suppose to be a "MERRY CHRISTMAS" if your just a 15 year old girl trying to please her parents and being threatened with "If you don't do all theses chores you get no Christmas"

Yea, that's the spirit!

You know what I should be sorry but I'm not so this is my Christmas wish to all those people who see nothing wrong in this world,
to all those people who are so positive and look down on all of us who are negative because we know what the world is like and have known since a the age of ******* 4!

Here's my wish to you:
I wish you would open your ******* eyes!!!!
Or better yet for judging me just last week

*GO **** YOURSELF!!!

To: Everyone on HP

From: Gothic Rose

     I would really like your Opinion on something.
Am I a Troll? I mean honestly, I would like to know so I can change my ways. And I'm only asking because my self-consciousness is kicking in
Thanks to LOVE CRAFT  I know he's loved and liked so I figured if he thinks so Well other people must too.

So please give me your opinion, I would really appreciate it.

With every passing minute.............
*I'm falling more and more in love with you.

I'm Pedro the Pirhana
And I don't think I'll see Maniana
'Cos some of me mates
Want me on their Plates!
Washed down with a Pina collada

I know by their glances so fleetin
That there's evil intent in their greetins!
So I'm watchin them
Watchin me, watchin them
While I swallow the one that I'm eating.

So I drew a picture tonight

And I want to give it to you

Because it's a crying girl with a stitched up heart, that has stitched up words that say "Will you keep it safe?

I want to give it to u because she's giving you her heart, like I have and wants you to love her and protect her heart....But you won't love her back like she loves you....will you??

Charmanders are Red, Squirtles are blue
If you were a Pokemon I'd choose you.
Your smile is stronger then a Hyper-beam.
Like Jessie and James  we'd make the perfect
Team.

I'll stay by your side like  Pikachu and Ash,
And I'll love you more then a level 80 Rapidash.
You're more legendary then a Zapados,
Entei, or Mew.

But out of all 450, I choose you.

Quite is what they call her...

But the quite ones are the ones who are hurting and

The ones who could end your life in a blink of the eye.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear drop.
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Falling in love is awfully simple, but falling out of love is simply awful.
                                                     ~*Anonymous

Not all scars show
Not all wounds heal
Sometimes you can't always see the pain
Someone else feels...

SO thanks to that ******* groundhog we have six more weeks of winter.

SO I'm really hoping once spring and summer get here I'll be back to my normal self again.

NO more love sickness
NO more broken hearts
NO more Sheded Tears
NO more False hopes
NO moreI love you's
NO moreBeing a Love Sick Puppy

SO Hopefully after this winter I'll be over my emotions and back to my Old, empty, tired, worthless, isolated, not giving a **** what you say or think about me self again.

I won't have a guy that makes me feel like I need to look pretty because I won't give a ****
I won't have a guy that makes me feel like I'm not deserving of his love or attention Because guess what? Oh that's right...
I won't give a ****

SO naturally I have some Season Hope in me.

Just somebody do me in already. Please I beg you!

Today I watched the rain.

Then I decided I'm going to sit in it.

Sitting in the rain is like be covered by a million little kisses.
I love the rain.

I used to do it when I was little and it helps me hide my tears
So no one has to ask me what's wrong.

Just  take the time at least four hours to just sit in the rain.

Stay real, stay loyal, or stay away from me.
It's that simple.

You don't like me because of it oh well, Let me tell you how many ***** I give.....Oh that's right I have none to give you!!

I wasn't capable of loving and I'm still not

My heart was made to be toyed with and broken

I was meant to feel love and then destroy my partner

I wasn't put on this earth to love or be loved

I was put on this earth to destroy or *be destroyed

＼(＾▽＾)／＼(＾▽＾)／
I sing and dance in the rain
(◡‿◡✿)
When I see him I try and act cute
̿' ̿'\̵͇̿̿\з=(◕_◕)=ε/̵͇̿̿/'̿'̿ ̿
When other girls try to flirt with him
(╥﹏╥)
When I notice he's not here
(º.º)
When his buddy tries to flirt with me
＼(〃＾﹏＾〃)／
When guys cheat
(ﾉಥ益ಥ）ﾉ ┻━┻
When I've finally had enough!
(=^ェ^=)
Then I see my cat!
ヘ(◕。◕ヘ)
Sometimes I worry about myself.

The hardest part about a diet
isn't watching what you eat.
But *watching what other people eat.

If you get this email or message please turn the other cheek.
It's a ******* scam and who ever the ******* are, your ****'s on blast bud.
You are all over the internet so I suggest you stop being such a ******* Duchebag and get a life.
We here on HP are here to express and live because we have no other way or simply because we love writing.

So stop being a ******* ***** and get a ******* life bro!

Okay so I was reading over poems and liking, re-posting, and leaving Comments.

Well I was reading one of my Favorite Poets on here Creep.
Her Poem Strength.

I read it, liked and commented....But my Comment was
I guess I'm weak...

And my after thought was What...the...****?!
I really just said I was weak because of a GUY!

Well I basically just a had a serious Mental slap.

I don't need a ******* man in my life!! and that's the truth! I'm a strong, beautiful, deserving young women!! Did I make a stupid choice and almost cost me my life? Yeah, I did and you know what I learned from it! and if you can't forgive me and actually see me for me then you know what?

******* *******!!!!! I DON'T NEED YOU IN MY LIFE!

The only person I need is me and me alone!
I have true friends that care about me and I have myself that cares about me!

SO you know what? whether you stay or leave I'm still gonna be there for ME because guess what?

You are just Temporary happiness and  me?

Well I'm Permanent happiness!
I can make or break myself

You WILL NOT Make or break me!

SO you know what it's your choice.

Because this girl is strong and doesn't need a man in her life.
I'm strong, independent, and I Will persevere with out You

Cause guess who's back?
That's right! My old *I don't give a **** what you have to say or think about me self

The love.                                                                                 The Blood.
The cherishing.                                                                      The bruising.
The lust.                                                                                  The must.
The sun.                                                                                  The rain.
The fake.                                                                                 The make.
                                     I love you too much to let go.
                                    But is the sun worth the rain
                                                             or
                                    The rain worth the sun. I cover m face with
                                    Shades, just so my friends don't see what
                                    Happened last night.

The love.                                                                                   The Blood.
                                            I want the love not the blood.
The Cherishing.                                                                       The bruising.
                                           I want to be cherished
                                           Not a bruised fruit.
The lust.                                                                                     The Must.
                                           You say the lust is a must
                                           But I say it's more like a bust.
The sun.                                                                                      The rain.
                                            I love the sun
                                            I love the Rain but,
                                            I hate your sun and
                                            I hate your rain.
The fake.                                                                                      The make.
                                            I will not fake it until I
                                            Make it, just for the fear
                                            Of not making it, I'm in a
                                            Vicious cycle of torture and
                                             Elegance. That has absolutely
                                             Damed my soul. Every day
                                             On and off, on and off.
                                             No more. I'm done.
I just want to know when will I have my sunshine.

I just wanted to say Thank you to every one who was at my side last night.
I really appreciate it.
I'm fine and doing better, I'm at school and getting through it.
Thank you so much! I love all of you and I mean that with all my heart.
Even the people that I don't really talk to or really know, Thank you with for your support.
It was a moment of serious insanity and a horrible mistake.
I promise I will never do it again.

We walked into my room as happy as could be
even though it's only been two days. You looked at me and said
"Baby, I love you."

I looked at you and said
"What did you say?"

"I said I love you"

"That's what I thought you said. Come with me."
Runs into bedroom
"Oh yea, just like I planned, *** on the second date."
He whispered to himself.

He walks into the bedroom and before he knows what hit him or in this case knows what "Stabbed" him, I stabbed him in the back and he fell to the floor with a thump.

*:Nice try *******, but I love you doesn't work on me.

So I found out that the stereotype for girls being ****** on their period is not true.

I'm not ******, I'm actually quite bubbly and some people look at me like I'm crazy.

So this the irony of a period.

Not ******, but Bubbly and happy!

In the beginning you gave me a white
Teddy Bear to symbolize our Pure
Honest Love for each other
And it felt so right.
--------------------------------------------------
Ever­y night I snuggled close
Wishing soon I would be snuggling
Close to you.
-------------------------------------------------
One day we started fighting over
Something stupid. You got ******
And called me a *****. I cried so
Much that night, I need relief
So I cut once, twice, thrice times.
------------------------------------------------
Later that night I took my blood and
Stained the bear under the eyes and
Trailed it all the way down the face
Like you made my tears trail down
My face.
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The next day I saw you with another
And my heart broke a little. I had
Confronted you and you said it was a
Friend nothing to worry about. But
I knew better so my heart broke a little
More.
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I went home and cut, cut, cut took the
Blood and stained a giant red splotch
Over where my heart would be....
------------------------------------------------
Saw you again and watched you kiss
Another I saw red and walked away.
You came to find me and acted like an
Angel, you said Babe, I love you with
all my heart I knew you were lying but
Said Okay Babe
------------------------------------------------
Went home and cut, cut, cut and finally
I cut and restitched the bear staining it
With my blood everywhere I cut.
------------------------------------------------
I came to you the next day Teddy Bear
In hand I gave it to you and said Here's
A piece of me, it's name is The not so Wight
Teddy Bear Hope you enjoyed toying
and abusing cause I had fun cutting and renewing.
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So everyone has heard the term EMO and honestly it makes me sick
That people just throw the term around as if it was a meaningless stick!

EMO isn't just for cutting, and depression, because if that was the actual meaning, everyone be that way at somepoint.

EMO means EMOTIONAL.

EMO isn't just for cutters, or people with really dark personalities.
I'm a Dark person, and I've yet to cut over the last year and couple months.

So the next time you go to throw the "Title"/"Label" EMO at someone, really think about what your saying.

And if someone wants to throw that at you just look and Laugh because  it's obvious they don't have a clue what they are saying.

"I don't hate you. I just hope your next period happens in a shark tank!"

"You go girl!!......Cause no one wants you here anyways!"

"You reek of the stench ***"

"I would love to insult you but,.....I don't think I'd do as good as nature did"

"If your heart really was broken, you'd be dead so shut up!"

"Your a ****"

"I'll beat your ***"

and many  many more. I just have one question?
WHY!?!?!?!?!?*
I mean it's not nice, and half the stuff being said has probably been said to you at one point or another. Sooooo why can't girls be like guys sometimes?
I mean really, they fight and like 3 minutes later their best buds again! it's strange but true, I mean personally I find other chicks amusing, saying stuff about other girls flaws when if that other girl could speak up for her self she could pin point 20 other things wrong with you as well. SO girls let's not fight and talk about it over some chocolate and shoe shopping yea?

1:00am     I'm still awake
1:01am     you're in my head.
1:02am     I think of your eyes
1:03am     I smile
1:04am     I try to sleep again
1:20am     you're still in my head
1:30am     Get out of my head
1:40am     I still can't sleep
2:00am     I think of your laugh
3:00am     I'm tired
4:00am     You.you. you
5:00am     you're still in my head
6:00am    You're in my heart
6:25am     I finally fall asleep
7:00am     I get ready for school

Caitlyn your my best friend, and I'm tired of seeing you hurt!
For the last time ***, it's not your fault and you need to re-tort!

Cody was an *******, who deserves nothing but Pain, and
Believe me when I say it, HE WILL GET THE PAIN

I'm done seeing you cry, and hearing about how he hurt you...
It's just not fair for you to be so emotional over some stupid high school
FRESHMAN drunk at that, Your a sophomore and he should have been grateful that you even gave him the time of day!

I care about you and I'm glad you cut him off, But be warned BOYS like him always come wanting more, and *** don't give him any more chances then you already have.

1) **** the girl who has been trying to get close to me,
To steal my man.

2) Slay the ***** who hasn't doesn't have the courage to tell my ***** to her face her **** talk.

3) After I **** the ***** from #1 bring her back from the dead and rub it in her face that HE'S MINE

4) Kiss my babe!

I found out a lot of interesting facts today and let me tell you NOBODY comes in between me and my Bae!
SO this ***** has to go.

I just have a few words for you.

You hurt her
I hurt you.

You make her cry
I break your face.

You break her Heart
I will fight until the ends of the earth to get to you
and then I will bring you to her put you on your knees
Apologize for every tear you made her cry, every part of her body you might have touched.

For every time she forgave you, for every second she spent on you
For every time you made her think you were the one.

Then I will take you to meat shop cover you in meat and throw you in a dog pound.

Then I will comfort her and take her to get ice cream and make her feel like the Amazing girl she is.

SO THIS IN MY WARNING!!
HURT HER AND I HURT YOU
No if, ands, or but's about it.

I asked you if I was pretty----You said No
I asked you if I was fat----You said Yes Of course
I asked you if you Wanted to be with me forever---you said No
I asked you if you would Cryif I walked away---you said No
                      
                        I had heard to much, and needed to leave and,

as I walked away...
You grabbed my arm and said..

You are not pretty, you are Beautiful
The only thing Fat, or Big about you is your Heart
I don't Want to be with you forever... I Need to be with you forever.

And baby I wouldn't Cry if you walked away....

                                      *I WOULD DIE!

School girl: Oh look if isn't poor Gothic Rose. You got any new marks on your wrist freak?

Me: Actually no, but I have the blade in my bag would you like me to cut up your face
Pulls out blade and waves it around

School Girl: Ha! You think your so badass? Well guess what your not, cause I'm pretty sure if you didn't have a weapon I could kick your ***!

Me: Okay, fine.
throws knife across the floor way out of reach
Let's go then, cause I can still cut up your face without a blade

School girl: Backs away a few steps
Your ******* psychotic and hope you die

Me:Ha! Tell me something I don't know! and you know what I'm already dead. Dead to everyone as can be

School Girl: runs away and says nothing else

Me: Walks across the commons, picks up blade
Well, Looks like we have another date blade, let's get to it.
*Follows after school girl

Christmas just isn't going to be as Merry this year...

If kisses were raindrops,
      I would send you showers

If hugs were seconds,
      I would send you hours

If smiles were water,
      I would send you oceans

If Love was a Person
      I would send you ME.

But I guess I won't be because I pushed you away thinking my LOVE would keep YOU close to me.

I can finally say it! I can finally say it!
I love you babe!

We were given
Two hands to hold.

Two legs to walk,
Two eyes to see,
Two ears to listen,
But why only one.....
Heart??


Because the other
One was given
To someone for us...

To find......<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Want and need are two different things
That in the midst of things just aren't fair.

I had a feeling of being High....
The only problem I had not smoked.

I want that feeling of energy rush
when you come near

I need you to show me you care
Even though we don't go there.

I want that tingly feeling all over again
When you pull me against your body

I need you by my side...

But I guess I need my family more.

I want to lay next you for hours on end
Forgetting that the world even Exists.

I need to stay with my family...
But it's really hard when all I WANT

is to be with you...

Want  and Need are to very different things
That in the midst of things just aren't fair.