Stop
Tearing me apart
Only to ask why I can't
Put myself back together

I send a smile into the world and it's all for you

I laugh at a joke until I cry and it's all for you

I kiss those soft delicious lips and it's all for you

I make a fool of myself to see a grin and it's all for you

I take off my clothes and let go of my dignity and it's all for you

I let this fire burn me to ash and it's all for you

I jump off this cliff and break my neck and it's all for you

I feel frozen inside like winter and it's all for you

I turn into the monster underneath children's beds and it's all for you

I become the same nightmare that keeps me awake at night and it's all for you

I rip off my skin and bleed out what's left of who I was and it's all for you

Now you're gone

I don't know who I am anymore and it was all for you

I had a many I'd have claimed as a friend
Though never seeing a truth so defined
We tell ourselves and each other it will never end
But whether intentional or not, it was a lie

Pathetic, I felt, like it had all been my fault
That those I saw as dear did not respond
I know now that I've realised it is not
That maybe friends truly don't last that long

Yet here I sit writing my burden down
Hoping to see the face of a friend from long ago
But I'll lay my heavy head to sleep with a frown
Because I should have guessed they wouldn't show

My words are like pebbles at the bottom of a creek,
they drift along beneath a gentle current and brush against your feet.

Sometimes you feel their jagged edges and wince.
Sometimes you find them smooth and pleasantly small.
Sometimes you pick them up to keep them for a little while.
Most times you just don't notice them at all.

My words are like trees standing in a lush, lost forest.
Naturally, organic beings come and make their nests.

Some people walk right by without a care to their presence.
Some people say they're dark, yet full of life you can't see.
Some people find themselves at their bottom and climb towards the light.
And then those people praise the way you can see the sun gleam.  

My words are like the very tears that come from my own eyes,
rain made from the turn of the weather that's only inside.

They come when I realise how much I love him, how deep it goes.
They come from anxiety I let build and I let leave me afraid.
They come when I try to fight the loneliness I'm plagued with at night.
And they come when he finally holds my hand and I conquer the pain.

My words are cinder blocks that keep me grounded when I feel I may float away.
These words bring color back to my existence when I feel myself begin to fade.

I can't sleep
Everytime I remember your words
They snap and recoil
And hurt me awake
Next time when someone
Promises me forever
I'll just smile
Look them in the eyes and ask
How long is forever to you.

THE SEA rocks have a green moss.
The pine rocks have red berries.
I have memories of you.
  
Speak to me of how you miss me.
Tell me the hours go long and slow.
  
Speak to me of the drag on your heart,
The iron drag of the long days.
  
I know hours empty as a beggar's tin cup on a rainy day, empty as a soldier's sleeve with an arm lost.
  
Speak to me ...

Friday night let's have some beer,
all my rowdy friends are here,
blondes, brunettes, and redheads too,
tight blue jeans, what a view.

Sawdust covers up the floor,
let's do some shots, who wants one more?
Blake Shelton sings some drinking songs,
smiles and laughter didn't take long.

Let the work week drain away,
hit the dancefloor, come on lets play,
belly rubbin' and boot scootin'
woo's and hollers and some hootin'.

Chris Ledoux sings "County Fair"
I kiss the redhead on a dare,
she's all in and kisses back,
all my buddies jaws hang slack.

The rest of the night we dance away,
and then watch the sun come up on the day,
breakfast anyone? my buddy screams,
and so we live the weekend dream.