a trip down to the memory lane.,
a must not be place,
but the maze and the reasons leave my heart pounding ,
what am i missing!
Why these obsessions.

Maybe am looking for comfort
a  reason to like,
or i just wanna feel better,
was i wrong or right!

Am i inflicting this on,
the confusion,the pain,
why puzzle my heart with this pain!

Am bleeding,screaming,
trying to race away from this torment..!
But sometimes you have to go back to move forwad.

This is a walk on flames,
it hurts! A tragic truth,
each step is a relief and a peek at the future

Staggering pain

Placing your hopes like a new prey

talking to me like your new bait

Thinking about you makes me suffocate

Decimate

Penetrate

Whatever's left of my cremate(d) heart

Words
Words
my ink flows like cash
Keep hatin you gonna get smashed

been around the world flying like Jackson
and they still believe that am a mason

You know haters
just idlers
bakers if nothing but envy

She did not die, slowly but surely the wound healed and soon there was only a scab and even that fell in time leaving only a scar - for there always must be something on memory, a little disharmony, a barely visible break from the continuity of the weave of life

The smile that suffers
The void that felt heavier
The green eyes filled with craters

The life we wanted wasn't meant for us
The stars we held crushed before us
The love we chased couldn't have us
The dreams we had crippled us
The days we moaned with passion are behind us

The perfect story has been loathed
The yelling and fights has been silenced
The tears has been iced
The bright sky has been covered
The beautiful memories has been devoured

The glaciers covered the heart
The mistakes filled with dirt
The tragic stories that hurt

echoes of the days long gone
reminiscing, reminiscing
memories is all you have
before memories is all I had

at 7 I was just a young toddler who enjoyed climbing trees and taking risks

at 15 the world felt more real ,my innocence taken,now am more cautious

at 20 I enjoy studying and hopes to be a doctor are still fresh
but am forced into love, just blinked and am a wife and a mother

here I am crying ,trying to stitch up this broken heart at 27.
Love is not bad but falling in love is horrible,a thought I pondered upon

here i am
Just turned 80
seen enough evil and nasty
experienced love and wonders of this planet
years are lessons
that I tell you

I've been here
Playing with words
Playing with hearts

I don't know
.
.
.
I don't know
whether to hate you
whether to love you
whether to **** you

I don't know
.
.
   .
.
I don't know
whether to harass you
whether to caress you
whether to kiss you

I don't know
.
       .
           .
               .
                   .
I don't know
what love is made of
why I see stars in your eyes
why am at crossroads

Then I'll be stuck in the epicenter
Of a very catastrophic outbreak

I'll be exposed
Maimed
and wonder if technology
Is the cause or savior of my fate

I won't listen
and settle on a very reasonable ignorance

I'll cling to God
Like we always do
And wonder if I'll go back when this is over

I'll blame everyone but myself
Rant and explore probabilities

I'll do what we do best
I'll be human

I am Born
For whatever reasons Born seemed to be the most appropriate name
Camouflage or not, I don't know
But
Don't  bother asking  where am from
cause earth is round and we are all on it
With different stories
heavenly or earthly, it is what it is


When am gone
I want you to remember me as a friend
a friend who opened up to you
Good  evil, bad or worse
I am a friend who found peace in poetry

when am gone
I want you to say that
He liked to call his poems pieces
Pieces symbolized that it could mean anything
It could be
a piece of art
a Piece of love
a Piece of ache
Or a Piece of life  


When am gone
My words and my heart will be Stapled here

Even if they didn't care

he made it to the furthest of lands

where hope and light felt more real

and the illusions of a better tomorrow 'laid to rest'

This is gonna sound like more pain
but if you don't like me drink some propane
go write about it

I don't take drugs but only a morphine
trying to runaway from more pain
blessing on top of sins
In your heart I rest in pieces

They just don't get it
In your thoughts I sweat blood
a very torn heart!
Ohh!
I ran into my old flame
***** you broke my heart
but there's no more pain

Its a cold world
You could be my lighter
and we'll all burst into flames

Me and you
Could ride on this road called desire
but I don't want no more old flames
I don't wanna get burned
no more pains!

Smile, breathe,believe

An epic deception

When the questions remain questions

I just don't get it
I love it soo much that I hate

I feel torn
Cruising towards reality

I feel written
A poem remembered

I feel loved
Enjoyed and celebrated

I  feel your warmth
On the blankets you left behind

I feel like the moon
always chasing the sun

I feel like a smile
a universal perfect mask

I love the illusion earth has to offer
the vanity
the supposed happiness
that I cling to
Forgetting that
Every good thing
Must come to an end

It is the truth that matters,
my truth or your truth settles it
but a well constructed lie is better than the truth,
it's been woven and embedded in our heads like a tumor seeking prosperity,
or let's just say propaganda motivates people.
Yet here we are all screaming for it.
I am certainly worn out,
clearly struggling to live in such a dichotomous world.
But, let's take a moment to resurrect something valuable.
CARE .
Care enough to think.

Call the stars
and let me sing
just to forget my worries
for  minute

Without rain nothing grows

It's about time i appreciate
appreciate things
things that i do have
the ones i don't,and
and the love i get

Is one thing that will survive time and the humans who crave for it

Watching her go will be the death of me

Time is life

don't waste yours

Why do you always sing
Songs from 'unburdened' heart
Soothing us all to a 'painless' sleep

Let's be honest-you love your children and would do anything for them,
but you secretly dread school holidays
because they turn your otherwise calm and orderly life into a chaotic spin.