Life's options
why am i such a lost seed
my world crumbling on me
life has never seemed darker

I stepped outside to seek some refuge
air,breathe, brother grasps something

I've been thinking  alot lately
some days of the future
i hope am being an impressive ape
my story a decade from now
is my latest obsession

Sometimes i want to understand why
we create our own future
why our fate is in our own hand
why life's journey is the longest with thorns
*and the devil's shadow clung to us

When am on hello poetry
I feel different
like am in space,floating around

This is my comfort zone
I get to be me without worrying
i know I have a family here
they want me in the Ark
far from waves and storms

What I write is just my world
My unwritten story
A diary that I share with everyone
i voice my souls long sufferings
and my triumphs

Am not a good poet
you already know that
but there people here with magnificent talents
Joe Cole being the father of words
musfiq the guy with delicious words
Patty m one of my favorites
Pamela Rae is definitely a highborn, can't ever be on her level

I write down my emotions
things ive kept in for centuries
this is how i get to express myself
in real world
believe me when i tell you in real world am like a rock
you'll never see this side of me

*am a very quite person and I definitely keep everything to myself

I speak about money, greed, ego
i write about life, pain emotion, love
i pen about stories
more stories about my story and most stories about your story

I told you about betrayal
cause I once clung to some nobody
i  just like pianos
something about it cools my heart
i 'm only beneficial
they only want my lavish life
i sing about destiny
what do i know about it?

I just wanna use you
cause love is all I steal
i  know something about strangers
Sometimes they fill the void, and maybe execute your wishes

What I do know is
You told me you don't wanna see me again

You sound  delusional
Sad and shallow

I was supposed to be  happy
You know, something like love of my life

was looking for someone to **** with
Play with,tune with and then dump with

I loved you unconditionally
Us two was an epic love

Ashtray

ashtray!

Ashtray
I smoked you and when I was done, ashtray

That's horrible
I feel like crying

Huh!
Us was a beautiful ***
But now, am done with

Am human
I would have given an empire for you

Crazy girl
I was paid with, to mess with

Humiliation
I never saw this one coming
You think my best days are behind me

Your *** definitely
You got a bright future behind

Did you ever...
Was their an us

*Who the  heck  you wanna be with beside me
I mean
You say your obsessed with me, and I agree
I mean
If I die today, my  Winchester Model 70 goes to my son
I mean
Get the hell out
its not like am gonna kiss you goodbye

Being indecisive makes me
Aint no telling
I stay late at night thinking about my life  
No telling
Having conversations with mama
My life is a mess, I aint been returning texts
So she’s been reading depress


Don’t ever take the vice that was great advice mama
Retired teacher but your words still got me evolving

We stopped talking about dad
That ***** still in the club
Call him after we get off the phone
And show him some love
That guy loved you to death
He made mistakes throughout his life that he still doesn’t accept
But he still wants our forgiveness
And **** look how we living
I’m content with this story
Who are we not to forgive him

I know i matter most

I wondered
What if the blame fell on me
stretched on my hammock
Feeling the despair of the fading dawn
and the striking of the sun rays on thy sagging skin
a sky encaged by darkness

Wheeling the blame as I mourn
the loss of my heart was a blow
reminiscing on the nights you moaned
the feeling of love and ecstasy reborn
peeking at the tales to most unknown

A potent heart
Confined to her social being
Glittering it's tales
Which laid her oddity
Blue iced eyes
Irresistible

As Days screamed into years
a once exuberant face dimmed into darkness
Nostalgia of those withering days
ailing into a feeble poet

The guest is gone
I can't help it but weep
For sure am heading back to sleep

My lost soul chained i  can't leap
I still joke that the guest is gone
So i meek with destiny for my own nake

tell me why we never changed
tell me how we always go back
tell me why we are still tamed
tell me if there's good in badness that we aspire

change is a difficult deed
your only required to decide
though the puzzle is their to 'slug' you behind
don't let your spirits and confidence be undermined
with void and vanity of this world

protection comes from your lord
So seek guidance from greed
with the world coming to a certain end
cynics as brothers you don't need

pray for us and them
that we all glow while darkness fades

Jenny is in love with Rick
Took awhile before rick confessed his virtual feelings


She replied I love you and sent a couple emojis
to show some happiness
now Rick is bursting with excitement that she loves him too
the heart emoji said it all

so he goes ahead and screenshot his onscreen feelings
and shares it with pals in his group
Tom: that's what's uuuup
Money bags: you got it bro
el: you ma *****
George: that ***** is yours papi

Now Jenny's feelings are itching
I must tell my girls am soon gonna get engaged
She tweets
Shares
And
Post on everyone's wall

I FOUND MY BETTER HALF

it's 8pm the girls are getting together
to celebrate the great news and
to watch a reality show
then followed by that series


It's now 1am,everyone is kissing goodbyes
we all forgot to talk about Jennys boyfriend
but once we reach home, we'll text our emotions
The emoji, will say it all

Ever thought your inside a simulation
that your reality is constantly changing
Your narrative written for  a certain purpose
Your heartbreaks
the pains youve  endured in the name of life
Was nothing but a programmed reality

Ever thought of the people you've crushed while climbing up
Because of that pain you caused her
She went and cried in that office corner
But he came and offered, sympathy, empathy
Whatever she needed
And her love story begun because of your crush

Ever thought the misery you keep experiencing is your own doing
that your on the verge of damnation cause you want to
Because the puzzling emotions are only here
Cause you want them to be here
Holding onto illusive memory
that once was, but isn't anymore

Ever thought of visiting Berlin, I think we all love Berlin
Or maybe the pyramids of Egypt
What about Paris, the food and the warm friendly folks
Can't forget Abraham Lincoln, we all have a little bit of linc in us
Brazil and samba dance, that, I wouldn't miss

Ever thought of writing a poem about writing a poem
Spilling your gut but in an eccentric way
Puzzling thoughts about everything
like this poem ever thought it'll ever exist
if it's even  a poem

Am I true to myself or do I live for the expectations of others
I got lost in this world and forgot who I am.
But still held captive by my own conscious

A reign of tyranny has began.
I armour myself with their fear.
With love trying to illuminate my heart,

I seek console in ******, that way I maintain my sanity.

With my unending quest to escape the drudgery of my leadership,

My journey as a cynic  has just started.

I've been gone
for long
thinking about tales
living lies
aches

I've brought you stories
of
escalating hurt
unspoken words
transparent shadows

bear with me
while I shade some of these
bare truths

us humans
who love to see the desperate
cling to these fragile life

us humans
who've grown used to horror
you think there is no other way

us humans
who seek freedom
to commit mistakes,
sometimes we don't have a choice
and sometimes we do

us humans
extremely, afraid of death
who do you turn to
when the night is at its darkest

Finding hope at the dimming tunnels

Can
            be
                     Illusive

My heart paused when I opened the casket
.
     .                 .
          .        .     .
              .            .
                              .
                                .
                                  .
and saw that you were still dead

A promise of happy ever after was

B           o            e
      R            k              n


            ­                                             Caught
                                          between
                                  fate
                         and
          destiny

I
Clung
To
Those
Scratched
tears
on
the
wall

Would you rather I fill you with fallacies of love
Or speak the truth
For years we dwell on what is sweet or easy to bear
for years we dwell on what is sweet or easy to bear
let that sink in
Whatever the truth is , it most certainly has never been easy

Hypnotized to accept what is
But in reality, it isn't
And what isn't  leave us salivating
for that beautiful dalliance with life


We are hooked
Subconsciously slaving
Inventing picnics in the name of innovation
high on rugged ideas puffed into a void

remember to let them know
that
talent
is not a luck

so when you
paint words
that are impossible to craft

or

sing a high note
with
so much passion
and confidence

let them know it is not by luck

Am James
I don't know, but I think am James
Sometimes they call me
Play bbb
boy I know am a mess
Living life on stress
Which leads to depress
maybe meds
hell I don't know


Sssawing what's left of my shells
It's strange I've not seen death
after devouring all this ****
a crack head
on C o i n,C o a l, *******
I got it, it's *******
or whatever
just shut the **** up

You see
Youuuu'evvvv disoriented me
iiiiiiiii hate you
where was i
ME. Writing a poem
Him. No
Me. Writing a book, your will, maybe your eulogy
Him noo (frustrated)
ME. You were sniffing something
Him. Yessss, give it back, where is it
MeIn your hand
Him . sniffs (groans) this is great
Me... Errrrm, Okey... Maybe we can get back to the novel you were writing  sniffing or puffing

hell I don't know
but
book me a bedsitter
I could use some hot sleep
it's cold out here