I was a lost cause, and my life was a mess, but seeing your smile for the first time stopped my distress.

I had to get closer and witness the power that made my heart bloom like a flower.

Up to this point, my world was sad and grey, but your smile made it all go away.

Your smile is the highlight of my day
when I see it, it sways all the negative emotions away.

It makes me feel a warmth inside my chest, and I must confess, your smile is the best!

Sometimes the hidden feelings locked away
Come forth and ruin my day
The Sadness and Anger make me go into a madness
All the memories of beatings and torture go on in my head like a recorder
I let every one around me get affected and the help I rejected
Even if I hide and supress the feelings it still hurts me
You ruined me as a person and my life worsened
But I fight the feeling and emotions every day and keep them under lock cause I wont let you win because one day you will face your sin

You come and go away  you're just like the wind you don't stay

Sometimes you blow strong
Sometimes you blow mild
Sometimes you just don't let your heart get filled

Filled with my love which is like a breeze compared to yours which only gives fake hope and flees

You ravaged my heart like a hurricane and only left pain

What did you want to gain?


Now I stand still like a wind toy
circling around in the gale of memories

Some are good but mostly bad
I cannot think anymore you make me mad!

To be loved

To be loved is the feeling of a warmth inside of you
The feeling of a flame burning so strong that your whole body becomes warm
A warmth that warms your body and soul
A fire you think never will go out
Until you get to the moment where you realize that the warmth only was a match and that all love burns to its end just like a match does.

Her Eyes

Like a bird flying free and roaming around something attracted me

A light shining bright, a light so beautiful and so intriguing that I had to look

I flew right into the light and felt an instant warmth indulging every bone inside my body

I stayed and made my nest, the light and warmth were all that I needed. It warmed me whenever I was sad or down like a blanket laying over me and warming my whole body and soul.

But over time the light and warmth began getting colder and colder, slowly burning out. All the good feelings became suppressing and depressing.

Once free and roaming now caged up and restraint, in the darkness and coldness.

Now when I look for the shining light all I see is a reflection, a reflection of a bird once free now caged up

caged up in her Eyes.