I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way

than this: where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

complicated
It's a word which can only be described as me
I have lost loves and broken hearts but it feels completely different with he
I am not myself anymore
I left her behind and closed the door
I wish I had told you from the start
That I loved you deep down in my heart
You know I am me the real me
As when we talk you reveal she
You love her I know you do
But I can't reveal her not even for you
This twisted world works In different ways
I wish I could break the rules and find a way out of this maze
You may have not always been faithful but that's because you weren't mine but now thats debatable
I've loved you through sickness and health
Through slowness and stealth
But I don't care about that anymore
As you have opened her door, my door

Love, what does it mean?

Simple.
Laughing not matter what.
Not caring about anything.
Feeling like your flying on a cloud.
Happy.
Useful.
Kindness.
Caring.
Understanding.
Easy.
Sens­e.




Oh how wonderful love would be if it was any of that.
But it's a true fact, you'll never know what love is till you loose it.


The question is, would you want to know what love is but loose it or never know you have it?

You decide.

Woke up
Ate breakfast
Brushed my teeth
And put on makeup

Today
Is not the day
I stay in bed

But I am not strong
Enough
Against
The flow of my tears

I pat my mascara-tears
Under my eyes
And cover my red nose
With a ton of powder

Why do I try so hard
To distract
Myself
Of the undeniable truth
Of extreme sadness

Maybe I should take a makeup wipe
Remove all my makeup
And weep till early dawn

I am tired
Of fighting
And faking
What I know
Is the truth

The
scariest
place to be
is on the
          edge...

                         the precipice
                             between
        keeping it together
                    and falling
                    into
          the abyss

Knowing
      that when you fall
you
    fall
a
l
o
n
e

shoelaces

My shoelaces need to be tied
But I’m stuck still in love
I’m trying to kiss my goodbyes
But darling it’s tough

My eyes don’t really see anymore
his eyes are stuck in my sight
No... I know I need to shut that door
For it keeps me awake at night

My shoelaces need to be tied
Maybe then I can move on
Maybe then I can move to a new sky
Instead of repeating the same ******* song

Falling out of love is a hard thing to do
So give me some clues
Now you know why I can’t tie my shoes

so peculiar yet
You have chosen me

so undeserving yet
You have blessed me

so full of sin yet
You have cleansed me

so full of the world but
Greater are You who is in me

they try to stop me but
nothing will stop me from reaching for You

You are Jesus ❤

we're caught up in illusions of dignity
i'm terribly afraid you'll see that
my blood is red instead of blue
or when my voice cracks you'll hear
how scared i am of losing you

when your teeth break my skin and
you feel my blood on your lips
i want you to know for whom it
flows so hot

on many lonely summer nights i can
feel it fading, the death of zeal, the
slow and steady mental nightfall, and
often i forget the happiness that crests
with rising sun

i love the days when the sky burns hot and
i find myself lost in your smile, our friends
filling my ears with laughter, my own chest
sore from running

night waits for no one, boy,
but neither does the day