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Blue Angel May 2016
I've never felt stuck, not like this. Pleasing my parents but also stabbing them in the back all in one sitting. I don't know how I can keep going with this. I don't know if its depression. You want me to be happy, and me being all the same person, but I don't want to come home to a judgmental father, who yells because I didn't give him the correct answer to life. I just wish you could see the good in him, the love of my life isn't ruining me, the only heart breaking, unbaring, piece to all this is you not accepting him because he didn't show up in a collared shirt, slacks and the perfect church boy look. You were mad because he showed up smelling like a 20 year old, with scars and a broken heart, and a way with words to love me. Its not rocket science, we clicked, accept it, I am tired of crying my eyes out for two hours every night hoping you come back and say "I'm sorry", I'm stuck.
Tough relationship
Blue Angel Sep 2015
Its funny how a simple "Hello" can change everthing
How a hug can mean so much, even if the rain comeschasing you
Looking at a smile that was gifted to you only, melts the heart
Or how a simple ounce of care can go a long way
Time passes, and before you know it, that door that wsa locked up
Has now opened to new possibilities you never knew existed
Thats the Meaning of You.
Blue Angel Sep 2015
I talk about you to my freinds, but they tell me to seeing you, that I'm too young to know what love feels like. Everyone thinks he has me pulled in so tight, but they are wrong. My light, armor, courage and everything in between reflect more when I'm with him. He is my other half, soul mate, I can't live without him. If I lost him, I wouldn't know what to do, because he makes me happy and that's all that matters. Are boundless hearts remain in one peace. That's all we want, together.
Blue Angel May 2015
I await day by day 
When I run Into your arms
With your warmth and 
Comfort surrounding my heart
Washing away every scare
That was ever made in me
The day I can hold you and 
Tell you that life is temparary
But I am permanent 
Living in eachother arms
Until we die together 
Making memories of 
Watching shiny bright stars
Your love will forever be engraved
In my heart and it's protected
Staying up late telling childhood stories
That we are both luminous beams
Dancing in the night sky drifting
Far away from everything 
And realizing we are better off
From the forgotten reality 
As effervesent stars that glow
Brighter with eachother 
We are giants who can run 
The world, or run away and find 
Are own place, somewhere unique
Becuase nature awaits are presence
With you, anything is possible
Forget about the inevitable
And let your heart become lovable
My warm hands can heal it
Because I've healed it before
And I'm not of afraid of losing you
But choosing you was the most
Intelligant decision i've made
I will never regret it, I promise
Wrote this cause it's my dream
Blue Angel Sep 2015
You may look at me and think my life is perfect because I'm blonde, blue eyed, and because i'm white. Two parents, 2 brothers, freinds who care and a nice home with shelter, and someone that I deeply deeply care about and love. But my life isn't perfect, in fact it's far from perfect. I didn't choose the lfe I have, I didn't choose the military life. It choose me. At first it's fun, moving to differnt places and going on adventures, but it does have it's flaws and bittersweet moments. Like having a dad go to war 3 tines and you pray tht 2 men dressed in service don't come knocking on your door. Or that he misses your soccer game,  your 1st, 6th, 8th, and 13th birthday, your 8th graduation, school events. Isn't there most of the time because he is trying to provide for a family. And how he has the words to comfort you tht mom can't find. Then you have the times when you try so hard to make sure you don't ***** up, but no matter how hard you try. How protective he is of you, and that you don't want to let him down. But that's just sone of it. Truth is, I've made so many mistakes that I can't count them on my fingers, I have cried enough times to make a river, and I made enough scares on my self physicaly and emotionally to **** someone. Because I didn't talk about my sadness and misery, I felt trapped, but it all changed, but sometimes it came back in different ways. I've been to 9 different schools, 7 different states and I've managed to keep in touch with 6 people. I've felt with police, and it wasn't my fault, I've don't illegal things, and I'm still in this earth. I'm currently 18 and I'm in high school about to change all of that. So here is to the people who aren't seen the right way, judged and messed with.
Blue Angel Mar 2016
How can you stop something you have no control over? When will the string finally break into two after bring stretched for way too long? Or when a heart shatters to the ground, have you found the last piece to complete the puzzle?
Random crap
Blue Angel Apr 2015
You are either the pursuing, pursued, tired, or busy
         - The Great Gatsby
Blue Angel Apr 2015
You can either let me
              fall to the ground or
              get out of my way
Blue Angel Apr 2017
It's been a while but I'm back, my life has changed significantly and I am happy now. No longer with the guy I was with, he turned out to be not what I expected. With someone new, and he is my life now.
Update on me
Blue Angel Apr 2016
"I'm searching for something I cannot reach"-Halsey
Blue Angel Apr 2017
I thought I knew what love was till I learned it was a empty word said on repeat for 5 years....
Blue Angel Feb 2016
Dry cement on the ground, doesn't do anything, it can't. Nothing notices it, wind blows past it, rocks land on it, and by force of nature, go away. Dirt is the only piece that stays on it long enough. Until you light a match, and let it fall, will the cement burn, or will it just sit there burning the wood and causing smoke?
Blue Angel Mar 2015
The way a waterfall flows is beautiful
It's clear, it's not *****
The rush and speed it has  
The way it glides on my skin
Refreshing, cleansing, effervesant
Closing my eyes and listening calms my senses
I could sit for hours, lay in the shade,
Look at the water and admire it's  clearish, light blue color, moving, touch the cold waves, allowing the water to wash over my toes and hands
I love the way water feels against my skin, I always have.
Blue Angel Mar 2016
I've tried to please everyone I know, but I just kept pushing my issues aside. I didn't hurt to let go of my mistakes the first time, bu know, feels like everything I say has a bigger impact that I thought. I have this amazing ability to sense when something is wrong with someone, a maybe because I have been down that path. I see fear in their eyes and they try to hide it, but once I see it, I latch on whether they like me or not. I've been told that I should be a therapists. I don't know, I can just sense some amazing things though
Blue Angel Mar 2015
The truth 

Love is just a quote and lying is the new truth, 
normal is a seat-belt protecting you from what you can become. 
A seat-belt that protects you from the initial hit, but not from the whiplash that comes with it. 
Normal Is the death of dreamers and the strength of wannabes, 
perfection, you're all that anyone wants to see.
Blue Angel Oct 2015
Somebody once told me to believe in who I am, that I am special, loving, kind, and amazing because of who I am. But to be honest, society makes it hard for me to be me. So what I don't wear super tight jeans? Or I don't wear enough make-up? Am I suppose to look a certain way for you to like me? No, I am an amazing person without all that. In fact I hardly wear make-up, I don't wear super tight clothes because if I did, I'd end up in bad places in this world.
Blue Angel Mar 2015
Confusion consumes me
chains, knifes, and actions strangle me
I want to hide and disappear forever
my strength has weakened and I can't breathe
How can I overcome something so big
How can I forgive if I don't know if he is sorry
Tears flow down my face
I'm losing all hope and fate
I can't let him go
He means so much to me
But he is hurting me and I don't want hurt
I want to fall asleep and his warmth fills my heart
I want to hold him, but what will it teach?
I dealing with a hard break-up, I can't control my feelings, and I'm constantly thinking of him
Blue Angel Mar 2015
You can't hide your secrets
You can't hide your demons
But that's okay, I still love you
A year long relationship is big
so many things happened that people wouldn't comprehend
You won't loose me
I stupid mistake makes us stronger
I have patience and I am willing to wait
Wait for the day when you grab me and hug me. I can wait. That's who I am
Blue Angel Oct 2015
There's a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she's wandered
And the shame she can't hide

She says, "How did I get here?
I'm not who I once was.
And I'm crippled by the fear
That I've fallen too far to love"

But don't you know who you are,
What's been done for you?
Yeah don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

Well she tries to believe it
That she's been given new life
But she can't shake the feeling
That it's not true tonight

She knows all the answers
And she's rehearsed all the lines
And so she'll try to do better
But then she's too weak to try

But don't you know who you are?

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

'Cause this is not about what you've done,
But what's been done for you.
This is not about where you've been,
But where your brokenness brings you to

This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You are more than the choices that you've made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You've been remade.

You've been remade
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
You've been remade.
This goes out to all the girls stuck in a rut of life struggles and sad days

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