Dragging around a beaten up soul,
so disfigured I no longer recognise it,
it's me I know it is but I no longer feel,
misaligned with this old body,
praying for the winter rain,
hoping it will ease this pain,
when duty called it could not fight,
lost for ever in the blackest night.

Mommy and Daddy tell me please
How and when did you lose your happiness?
Don't you remember back when you loved and kissed?
Tell me it wasn't a curse
One that tore the love away
Please stop fighting and fall in love once again
for now. forever. for the rest of your days..

Depression is - emptying me.

Anxiety is - drying me out.

One word and just like that
I am broken into two
My happiness expanded whilst
I’m growing into you

One word and just like that
I am broken into two
Lesser parts of me
Become stronger parts of you

Don't call me something so wondrous
If you feel anything less than love for me

Don’t use such a heart-warming word
If you do not mean it with every bit of your soul

Don’t call me that
Unless you have held me
Kissed me
And declared
That we will always be

Your lies could stretch for miles
And I'd still hang on your every word
As if your voice was a buoy
In my sea of senselessness.  
I long to love you
The way you should be loved,
But I'm not sure how you'd handle truth
If it were to wrap around your tongue.

Hardened heart n darkened soul
Actually caring takes its toll
I forgot for a moment and let you in
That's was a mistake to begin
**** I'm stupid, why do I try
I just always end up alone to cry
I need to accept I'll always be alone n not to care
Then keep my heart welded right there
High on a mountain no one can reach
Safe from all the pain that wants to leach
But I forgot and I cared and I cried and I hid
I want to yell, "look at what u did"
But I'd alone hear my cries
So let me just hang here with no goodbyes
Because I am alone and always shall be
And caring has been locked away from me