Dear monster in my head
I want to see you
Really see you
Inspect you
And understand you
Dear monster in my head
I promise if you come out of the shadows
I'll push away my anger
Desperation
So don’t worry
I’ll clench my fists
Dear monster in my head
I wonder what made you this way
Why you seem to hate me
Why scream these dreadful silent whispers
To me almost constantly
Dear monster in my head
I’ve only seen your beady red eyes briefly in a dream
And I want to observe the rest of you
For if I can’t always control you
I want to understand you
..
Is it you that see now?
Are you that figure coming out from the depths?
I can’t breathe
And I’m crying
Sobbing
But wait a second
...
You're stunning
Not like a sunset
Or a pretty girl
You just feel that way
Dear beautiful hurt in my head
I am so sorry I called you a monster
When you were just in pain
Dear beautiful hurt in my head
All bruised
With tear-stained cheeks
And terrible memories
It turns out that those beady red eyes
Was just the blood bleeding from our hearts
And that you actually have green eyes
That have some yellow near the iris
Just like me
Dear beautiful hurt in my head
I forgive you
And I hope you can forgive me one day
For making you hide in the shadows
Out of sight
And in my mind
Dear beautiful hurt in my head
Let us feel this pain out loud
Together
Holding hands
Watching good and bad days go by
Dear beautiful hurt in my head
I love you
Even though sometimes you make me cry
I feel like recording a 4-minute film of this, so I can show what the hurt looks like.
(This note was written by a fish who wanted to get caught in a net. At least someone would love him.)