Flesh and pleasures
Anxiety and loneliness
Tempted
Forms of confusion
Tangled in shame
Guilt untamed
Shattered tears
Shadowed in fears
Hiding in pain
Breaking in vain
Feeble
Surrender
Saved
Sanctified
Justified
Called
Eternity

Behind the looking glass are pretenses
Where heartache flow like a stream
My feeble feeling keep me senseless
Future becoming vague dream

Every unspeakable words
Every pinch in my heart
Every unseen tears
A spark of hope in every prayer

Darkness always have its way
In my crossroads, even in my alleys
I cried for help, will you please hold me?
Abduct me from my self

God, I weep for you
Your eyes peer into mine
I melt at your touch
Though I’ve never felt it
I dream of you consistently
It is all for naught.
You drift further back
Slowly but surely fading
Purple bruises adorn my arms
Wounded.
Though you smile still
My eyes well up with tears
We see each other in a different way
Love has many meanings.
I dream of what we could have been
There was never any chance
I never had a chance.
Self deprecation,
Per usual.
I never wished to be hurt
I never wished to ruin what we had.

An oblivious future
And a cynical heart
A spark of hope
And a joy of an answered prayer
A moments of love
And mending of its broken pieces
An answer I can't seem to find
A hatred knocking on my way
A light that shutter all the darkness
A chance to be renewed
And gaining a new heart
A choice and its consequences
A learning for each mistakes
And His faithfulness throughout May

There's no victory without battle
Winning isn't always a victory
Be pure to your countenance
Fraudulence will never do
Strive for excellence
Fight for righteousness
Lead us to honesty

I shall live in quiet life
Free from hang-ups
Believing that I'm just a fragment of your memories- forgotten
Good bye is not the right word nor see you soon
For I shall see you and meet you in my dreams
I shall believe, I'll forget you
I'll be back in simplicity and gray colors.
Someday, Perhaps