I'll never understand..
What it was that I did wrong.
To have to suffer through the pain of losing you.
You once meant the world to me,
You were my entire universe.
But one day you just up and disappeared out of my life.
And left me here all alone,
Without an explanation as to why.
I loved you more than words could've ever expressed.
Yet that still wasn't enough for you to stay.
I'll never understand...
We had a love that felt unreal.
Love for you was all that I could feel.
But now, it's been replaced with a sadness that cannot be erased.
A hole inside of me,
That cannot be filled.
A dark void of sadness,
That seems infinite.
As infinite as my love for you..

I don't know how to put my emotions for you into words,
I don't know how to tell you how badly you've hurt me..
I knew from the start,
That you would be the one to break my heart.
But for the little time we had together,
It felt real and pure..
But you've moved on now,
And now I'm just another chapter,
In your book of memories.
I know it's unhealthy for me to dwell on the past.
But is it too much to ask,
To have you back one last time?
So I can show how much I love you,
And how you of all the billions of people in this world,
You were the one that became my forever,
You were the one that I seen myself someday marrying.
You were the one..
But I know you'd never feel the same about me.
I'm holding onto something that's been broken from the start.
But I still continue to try to find the right pieces,
To put it all back together again..
I miss you..
Oh I miss you so much..

Why does it hurt so much?
If I knew this was going to happen..
I knew sooner or later you'd let me go,
I guess I just never wanted to believe it.
I never wanted to live a life, where you're not mine.
But this entire time,
You've led me to believe that you actually loved me,
That you actually cared...
When this whole time is was a lie..
Where did I ever go wrong?
I gave you my all, and my all was all I had.
But still, it wasn't good enough for you.
I know, that not even in a million years, would I be good enough for you.
But we both know, I was the best you've ever had.
No one, could ever love you as much as I do.
But you've gone and thrown that all away.
Yes, I hate living a physical life without you..
But I will do anything and everything,
To be with you someday,
To hold your hand, and kiss your lips..
To make sure you know that you are not alone,
And that you have someone who loves you,
More than words could ever express.
I just wish you'd give me another chance to prove that to you.
But I'm tired of crying myself to sleep over you,
I'm tired of shutting myself down, and pushing everyone away because of you.
I'm tired of constantly hurting because of you.
But there's nothing I can do to stop loving you..
And I'm so terribly sorry..
I'd hate to be loved by someone like me too..
But just know, I'll always love you more than anything in this world..
And you'll forever have my heart.

For the longest time, I was blinded by your love..
I was so blind, that I couldn't tell you didn't love me at all..
But now my eyes are open, and I can finally see..
You no longer want to be a part of me..
You've pushed me away time and time again..
But I've always came back in the end.
I always came back with open arms for you,
Because gosh I'm so madly in love with you.
But how can I continue holding on to someone,
That doesn't want anything to do with me?
How can I continue loving someone,
That doesn't even love me?
How can I continue to be a part of something,
That isn't even real?
I made you my life, my whole universe..
You made me just another girl, that meant nothing to you.
You were my light, in all my darkness..
Now you're just part of the darkness,
That surrounds me..

I haven't noticed until now,
That I have no one in this world that loves me..
I have no one in this world that would go out on a limb for me.
I have no one in this world to hold me when I'm sad,
I have no one in this world to cry on when I need it,
I have no one in this world to share my moments with,
I have no one in this world that is curious about me,
I have no one in this world that understands me,
I have no one in this world that accepts me and my terrible decisions I make,
I have no one..
For a while, I thought I had someone..
But sitting here all alone,
Without a soul near or around me,
I realize that I don't have anyone at all..