i love black
and gray
and white
and cream
and navy
they're such easy colors
until I realized
that the sky before my eyes
is blue
that the natural way of things
is colorful and diverse
and that greens melt to yellows melt to oranges melt to pinks
it got me to think
how beautiful colors are when you love them all

you are not brave enough to face it
you can hardly avoid it
and it clings to you
so tight
when your away it sings to you
and at night
you dream about it
and you can't get out

until you find someone new
in your same state as you

when you hurt your loved ones

for

addiction

when you leave what you've worked for

for

addiction

when you ignore your responsibilities

for

addiction

and face the giants together

It's funny.
How your bed can be your best friend or your worst enemy
How it contains your worst nightmares and most splendid dreams
And how awful it is.
That people don't know how you feel
when you wake up and you still think the demons are real

Morning after morning I'm in fear when I wake
Trying to calm down fearing what it will take
and when I look back on what i did while I slept
I shake.

Because I cannot trust myself
While I am asleep.