My heart beat like a drum
endlessly falling for you.
I licked my lips of colored plum,
hoping it will touch yours too.

You held me like I was yours,  
and it meant that you were mine.
It was a night like no other,
a feeling of cloud nine.

Your left hand wrapped upon my right.
Your right hand on my immobile arm.
I held on to you too tight
hoping that it will be no harm.

It was a feeling like no other
to finally feel loved.
Fortuitously slept, rather
than talking to my beloved.

I am haunted by a past,
full of nightmares and a gun shot,
a melancholy day,
a restless night.

To when will I be,
at a place of a new me.
Here I am again.
Lost and never found.

I thought I was fine.
Little did I know
that I was wrong to say.
I was never fine.

A home is where
your undying heart stays.
I lost my home.
All I have is a place to live.

Every hour I am awake
at a place not a home.
I turn inevitably insane
like a gun unready to aim.

I am all alone.
Not a single one
can interpret what I feel.
Moreover, I am the black sheep.

Do I get to keep who I am?
NO--I can't.
I am limited to what I need.
How can I be better?

A water pipe that has a hole
can be fixed with a bit of tape.
However, it is never fixed
only pretending to be fixed --covered.

I was never fixed.
I was only pretending to be.
It's been a year,
and yet I am found at a grave.

Friends help.
Family don't.
I though we'd go as one
to overcome.

No one is listening.
I am watched over by
a ghost of
---nothing.

I never saw the night like this
Countless stars shining through the abyss
A quarter moon full of light
I never knew this is how beautiful the night is

I wander through my countless thoughts
How it would feel to twinkle like the stars
How it would look like to be as bright as the moon
I wander every night that I see how beautiful the night is

To see is to believe the wonders of the night sky
Its color of blues and whites makes me
Calm as how the wind is
To see is to believe *how beautiful the night is