You wear leather
As dark as your heart
You speak words
As sharp as a knife

You smell of cigarettes
And sometimes cologne
You wreak of Jack Daniel's
But mostly depravity

You lurk in the shadows
And prey on the young
You desire a girl
But only one night

You tell her your lies
To trick her to stay
And then like a coward
You run away

i wish i knew before i decided to fall for you.
i wish i knew you weren't going to catch me.
sometimes i'm so stupid,
caring for people who don't care for me.
who won't care for me.
and as i watch you laugh with her,
i feel worse.
i feel *****,
disgusting.
i begin to break myself down
because i know that i will never be
as pretty as her,
or be the reason for your laugh.

it's been said they call it a crush
because it's always the person you
fall for who crushes your heart.

little did i know,
they'd been right all along.

you crushed me.

I have this list in my mind
Of all the things I wish I had said
Numbered from the most important
To the frivolous passing sayings
A hello in the brisk morning light
Or a goodbye in the star filled sky

The list gets jumbled and muddled
As time moves forward without us
Knowing I had plenty of chances
To speak on behalf of my heart
But I held the words too close
Until they filled my head with thoughts of you

I say them out loud to myself
As if you were here by my side
But instead the words fall
With no one to catch them
And I’m left with my mouth open
As an “I love you” barely escapes my lips

i feel myself slipping away.
most days i don't know who i am.
i'm being worked down to the bone,
nothing i do feels right anymore.
i feel nothing anymore.