"viiii" poems
I wasted
far too much
on far too
little.
And I'm
no longer waiting
on the best
to arrive.
I'll settle
for something
as plain as a silhouette
and as simple
as the truth.
Apr 26, 2015
Apr 26, 2015 at 11:37 AM UTC
I.
Snowman in the park,
not there yesterday
but watching all this morning,
eyes that don’t blink,
black as a crow.
II.
Children **** him
with a vegetable,
a tartan scarf throttles
his frozen throat.
III.
Button-like holes
form a grin,
a banana of circles
fingertip-made.
IV.
Sphere of snow nearby,
an unfinished friend,
project abandoned.
V.
Went to see it,
the skinny veins
of our footprints
a chain around
its podgy white body.
VI.
Sun sploshes the face,
squeak as we touched
its cheek,
residue on our gloves,
signs of decay.
VII.
Doesn’t talk
but sits ignorant,
questions not answered.
Kids get bored.
VIII.
Why will he vanish?
Everything is temporary
a parent explains,
cold as a cube of ice.
VIIII.
Days later
we see it crumble,
great clumps that slump
to the ground,
shedding limbs.
X.
Gone until the next time
I say.
Gone and forgotten,
I bring the scarf back in.
Mar 5, 2017
Mar 5, 2017 at 10:57 AM UTC
i. you are broken bones and candy too sweet, you weren’t made for goodnight kisses and long walks on the beach
you weren’t made for me.
ii. when my lungs stop bleeding and my skin stops ripping i will give you up. i will power wash you out of my veins because you will never
ever, have control over me again.
iii. if forever is the word that has kept me stuck to your ground than heartbroken will be the only word that could free me, because if i sit here falling any longer
there will be nothing left of me.
iv. i'm not pixie dust and you're not princess charming, i am able to live life without your constant explosion
and you will survive without being the reason i'm dying.
v. i am repeating phrases repeating phrases repeating phrases because your lack of change is slowly getting to me
slowly drowning me in your coffee, bitter, black, and
i'm never coming back up.
(you're probably okay with that)
vi. i tell you i love you and the sky comes undone
and when i say ¨it's falling¨
you say ¨so don't look up¨
vii. maybe if your last name and my first name made some type of sense, we wouldn't be sitting here watching it all end
the bed is in flames and we're going insane
because love is only chemicals and lies and we know nothing will change.
viii. you feel nothing and i feel everything and so i tell you
¨i hear wedding bells¨ because, don't you?
and you say ¨cover your ears, my love, they're lying to you¨
viiii. never have i ever fallen for someone bathed in bleach
never will i ever love someone incapable of loving me.
x. this is the end and you're not my friend and the moon is dying and children are crying and you're leaving me behind and i'm letting you go
is this what it feels like to be alone?
Feb 19, 2019
Feb 19, 2019 at 12:30 PM UTC
I miss staying up all night with you.
We wouldn't even notice the sun rising because we were too focused on loving each other.
I miss when I would get drunk and you would laugh at me because I would stumble over my words.
But I wouldn't care that I looked like an idiot because nothing warmed my heart more than seeing that smile of yours.
I miss arguing with you about where we should go to eat.
And I miss when you would get mad at me when I said "I don't know."
I miss how your eyes would sparkle whenever you tickled me.
I know I always said I hate when you do that, but I secretly enjoyed it.
You never realize the things you would miss when they're not there anymore.
I miss kissing you at red lights,
And resting my hand on your leg when you drive.
I miss how comfortable you made me feel.
You made me feel like I was capable of achieving anything.
And I knew I could do it because I had you by my side.
I would give up everything to have you here with me.
I sleep with my fan on now.
I only use one blanket.
Nov 13, 2017
Nov 13, 2017 at 10:20 PM UTC
I
Begin by getting out the ***
The bigger, the better.
But a standard one will do.
II
Next, bring out the grounds.
The darker they are, the more
Bitter they'll be, the more
Satisfying it'll feel when it's drunk.
III
Fill the *** with split tears to the brim.
Anymore and it'd overflow.
IV
Place the *** in the coffee maker,
Oven, or the microwave.
Whichever will boil fastest.
V
While the water is boiling
Place the honey on the counter.
The sugar was always too
Sweet for you.
VI
Once it's been properly steeped,
Let your hands hover cradled around
The *** So that you may feel the heat,
But not be burnt.
VII
Once the water has cooled to 451 degrees
Write down the words you meant to say
Tear them and drop them into the ***
If it doesn't smell like regret, you're doing something wrong.
VIII
Once you've scowled sufficiently,
Make sure to take a sip from the ***
If it still tastes like it used to,
Pour in a cup of honey or salt.
Stir to dissolve.
VIIII
By now the water should taste
Of bittersweet regret.
Take out the biggest spoon you own
And collect a tablespoon of the
Lightest grounds, and eat them.
X
The lightest grounds will taste
Of laughter and of smiling.
They’ll taste of roses blooming in your chest
And of the sun kissing your skin in winter.
The darkest grounds will feel
Like thorns.
XI
However, you’ve had your fun
Now, it’s time to stir in the
Darkest grounds.
There’s no need to filter them,
After all, it’s only instant coffee.
XII
Pick up the *** in shaking hands and
Pour it all out into your preferred mug.
Frown at it and huff angrily as you watch
Plumes of smokes rising.
It smells just like he did.
XIII
Consider throwing the steaming mug at the wall.
Picture the shards mixing with the mess it’d make.
Imagine how it’d feel to hear the sickening crack
Of it shattering.
Consider it, but do not act.
XIV
Finally, you’re done.
You should feel proud of yourself.
Now, the best part, after all it’s like they say.
You’ve made your brew,
Now drink from it.
Jan 26, 2019
Jan 26, 2019 at 1:57 AM UTC