"If I could choose between loving you and breathing you I would use my last breath to say I love you."
 
Danger was in the air as I ran over to your house, right next door, the perfect place for a best friend to live. If i ever had a problem my first assumption was to run right to your house, let you hold me and comfort me. I would let you soothe me and tell me over and over again that everything would be okay. By the way you said it only half the time I believed you.
 
Sometimes when I see you in the hallway I still say hi, its so hard to register the fact that now all I get from you is silence.
You look down each time I pass you.
Your eyes blank, a endless brown whole with nothing in it, not the love I used to see there or even a faint glint of happiness.
I forget about the past we had.
Where I pratically killed you, destroying your heart with my naive movements and my dumb choices.
I didnt mean it! I want to scream, to cry out to you.
How much I wish you would forgive me.
My shame eats me up everynight, everytime I see you my stomach drops and all I want to do is go into the corner and cry.
 
I keep the memories of our friendship hidden in the back of my brain, all those times we had together. The ones you just forgot and I still go back to everynight. My safezone is this dark, cold, world. The world where i am alone.
Without you I am nothing.
 
At this point Im brought back into that time in my life where everything was perfect.
Where you were my best friend, and all our problems were gone,
Where we can talk all day everyday, instead of getting into an argument every two seconds.
 
If only I didnt have to ruin it all..
And when its dark out, and everyones lights are off. The animals are sleeping and the owls are awake, Schools closed, the city silent besides those few drunkies who send echos of screams through the deserted streets. I let the memories captivate me and take over my body.
I am sent back to a time when everything was perfect.
Soon I begin to beleive this is all reality and I am back into your arms again.
But then my alarm clock rings, I get up and dressd for school.
See you in the hallway surrounded by girls, just the sight of you making milllions of emotions evolve in my stomach,
I smile at you, and my heart flutters as I see you smile back at me and wink. Your white teeth glistening, but then I turn around to see her there. The girl with the long lucious hair that cascades down her hourglass figure, With the blue eyes with brighten in delight.
 
I begin to wonder why I ever let you go.
The answer comes to me it was because I thought you would chase after me.

A boy and a girl they went for a ride
To be and to be perceived and die
Just to try it.
As the sun it hit the girl from the side
He saw what he had never realized
That he’s but an alien in a pale disguise
Compared to her.

And she remembered her name and cried
As they were standing naked eye to eye
For the first time.
And he drew her face up to his cheeks
And spoke the words she could not speak
That made her body so warm and weak
In his arms.

And when he said this to set his mark
It felt as razors against her heart
And hurt her.
He said, ”trust me what I say is true
That I don’t sing to **** your mood
I’m only here to be with you
Because it’s you”.

The first they met was a foreign man
Who screamed ”I can **** you because I can!”
By the road.
But none of them believed his lies
They yelled at him ”We will never die!”
And so they laughed there side by side
In the night.

The next one he would change their fears
As he made them realize that so many years
Had passed by.
And she looked at him and began to wonder
Is he the one who makes my life go under
And thats how she began to wander
By herself.

And though he knew that every kiss
They gave each other were only his
He thought.
That she’s not happy just like me
But I’ll make her happy and then she’ll see
That despite my faults I’m the one to be
With her.

And as they drove way down the road
They both began to feel dead and old
In their hearts.
And he said ”This can’t go on anymore”
And she said ”Why should we fight anymore?”
And they thought ”Jesus what a bore!”
By themselves.

He knew that this should be a fight
She thought we should change sides
This time.
So she found some other kindda lover
And the boy he knew he was above her
”I ain’t gonna be the one who stops her!”
He said.

And though the river it has changed
They are the only thing who remained the same
Through life.
And they wake up just to feel the doubt
But doubt is what it’s all about
And they’re still here because they shout
When they fall.

Life’s a battlefield
its a game with one life
the main goal is to
give it your best shot
lucky if you were given another chance
to enter this battlefield
where money and power are your weapons
love and care is your only protection
and family is your safezone
In this battlefield your enemies
are your weaknesses,insecurities and poverty
as I grew up i realized
i was on my own
no allies or cheats needed
the government you once thought was your ally
was nothing but a facade,because the only ally you need is yourself
a battle against life is hard
no cheats or armors to be used
its a man vs. self battle
surrounded by money and power hungry people
where crab mentality is prominent.
you will be surrounded by temptation
that will test your morals and values
But my dear lord like the camel that passes through the needle’s eye,
I’ll live humbly for you
for your whole existence is my sliver linning in this world full of pain and regret  between your arms is where I should be
Being with you is my home for eternity.
unlike the rich young man I’ll give everything up for you but
I won’t give up on you because its you and I till infinity
Now all I ask is for you to stay with me and love me with all your heart
for I’m willing to give you everything you deserve and all I own
Take me as I am for I’m perfectly imperfect but I’m perfectly perfect for you