Dustin
Amanda
Light flanks the snowbanks
my memory thanks the simple soundscapes
of textures closing in
as walls and ceilings
and snow and sleet
We can blame the weather
but we'll be here forever
cursing ourselves
mid-stride
Stopping motion
mid-explosion
a simple thank you from the
particles we've denied
All things moving outward
The molten core of earth
Our mother
Chaos empty space
Our father
Standing, surrendering.
The weather tethers at my veins.
Pushing. Pulling.
My emotions run high with the hopes of a new sunrise.
Guide me,
show me,
lead me to the holy water you sip like its never ending.
Show me the truth behind every iris that passes my curious glance.
Breathe in this cold sterile air while we dream of something tangible...
Strange winds come on strong in the heart of the mislead, the outskirts.
We thrive on the untouched surfaces of the mind..
We breathe in the discomfort...
This is the nothing substance
I'm looking for
Seeking ever leaking truth
of faucet water too heavy
Minerals come to life
and return to the ground
in the instant of
midair waterfall
Weightless feeling fateless
determining the future
on solid ground grasses
fishing baitless
naked sameness
emotion
motion
ion
on
Seeking direction in the wake of misdirected affection.
Faulting to the backbone of habits.
Falling faster, I pause in the balance catching my breathe.
I inhale everything surrounding my mind.
Exhaling all my simple poisons.
A detox of wandering souls and singular holes.
Eating. Feeding. Breeding.
Filling all this space for all those after me.
Fill me.
Fulfill me.
Accept the darkest crevasses of this mind.
I still turn a silent shy cheek...
Sea oh double
em oh en
Common ground
from the firmament I send
Confusion permanent
in an ocean
Oh see an end
Painless drifting aimless
seeking searching
for the seam
into which this world
is born
The lifeseeking thread that never ends
The bloodborne
pathogen
Of caring void
and emptiness
Caress you like a stone
Forever there
In the loveliness
of human hair
Saying, I was there
When emotion became
the firm ground
never sinking
Thinking of the way out
but never escaping
Mountains around
an ever growing feeling
Drifting aimlessly into the empty serenity you present so pleasantly.
Once again I slide further from comfort and balance...
Feeding off any sense of insecurity.
Craving that whole duality of my circumstance...
I keep treading the muddy waters I choose.
My body gets trapped in the
sticky egos and messing misunderstandings,
in which everyone laughs away.
I'll schlep the dirt from my soul and shine light once more.
Exhausted and tried.
Ill shine...
Your light
is not lost to
my dilated eyes
It's lost in my own lost hope of withering dreams and lost star seeds.
It falls away in every cold shake I make within whiskey's withdrawal.
It fades away in the simple staggers I make and unfulfilled chances I take.
But, not all is lost.
I still keep this little light of mine.
I still let this light shine.
I'm just a little more aware of the spaces it awakens and the souls it helps take in.
It's ever shifting in this cosmic wake, it hides, it shies, it cries.
Like me, it knows when to pipe the **** down and listen to the world.
Listen to everything it allows.
It hears souls like you.
It feeds me.
Feedback,
I've got my need back
Shaking like a lovesick
fiend
On every letter of your speech
I'll filter this wormhole
off kilter
into every relationship
in front of my eyes
Until we meet again,
I won't stop telling stories
of jackals speaking english
To fetch our sweet meat
from top shelves
and ruins
Blue and bruised
flesh alludes
to stories unspoken
and broken glass
dreams of unity
Bottle falls
Slow motion
It all seems
like a dream
in endless blue
love tokens
This is a texting duet between me and Dustin at 3AM, its how we communicate.
