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Vani j Sep 2017
Poetry is baring your soul...naked.
Vani j Oct 2017
She didn't write poetry
Poetry got written through her
Vani j Jun 2016
Princess of darkness,
She is the Queen of the doomed,
Walks through the midnight moon,
Sleeps through the noon,
Yes, her face is charmless
Just like a child who went
On deathbed very very soon
Eyes, sea of sadness quite like
Celebrating the aftermath of the goons
Yet, I am in luv with her
just like Japan is with typhoon, endless
Like infinite craters on the surface of moon
#moon#noon#soon#goons# princess# darkness# Japan # typhoon# craters
Vani j Aug 2016
I am the product of lost civilization;
hanging in between circles  of  modernization ;
who tells
Whether its rising or setting of sun  or globalization
The era of bindis
Or glamorization
Of going to Pubs
or piligrimization
Of  mothers going to kitty parties  
and  of socialization
Of works of Picasso's    
Or hussainization
Of  belief of gods
Or Sensationalization
Of act of democracy
Or  just rationalization
Of laws of science
Or limitization
Of acts of defiance
Or patronization
Of loss of love                        
Or dehumanization
Of views of people
Or individualization
Vani j Sep 2017
All the girls/boys that hated you
And all the boys/girls that you loved
There is a special place for them
Its neither heaven nor earth
Vani j Jun 2017
She was a book of puzzles.
In a cover so plain.
It was puzzling.
Vani j Oct 2017
It was one of those days again
Her each sunshine sooner or later was akin to rain
Vani j Apr 2017
She rotated it 180.
Tied the loose ends.
pretended with books, every kind.
Tried to **** it in the oven.
Tried to prison it in her mind.
Took it to  beach
Tried to bury it in the sand
Tried to drown it in the water
But it came back... every time
Stronger than before...
Vani j Jul 2016
I was never sad that it broke
I was sad that you never tried to rebuild it
Vani j Aug 2017
Cruelty doesn't make her cry anymore,
Those rose thorns don't hurt so much
As a sweet caress
Sweet words do
They hurt, they touch
They make her cry
They make her wonder
Where did they come from
Chinese fingergames
Angry child...
Breaks her
Its like waiting
Small a gesture
Can hurt you so much
Vani j Oct 2017
She was selfish
So selfish.. That she might ****...
But did she ever claim anything otherwise..

There is nothing great in sacrifice, she will tell you

Who burns their own hand,trying to douse the fire that is going to scar somebody else's heart

Who keeps themselves cold, when they can get the cheap light burning
down low

There is nothing.... nothing great in sacrifice

It takes a man to ignite himself with selfishness
And turn himself to dark
Reverse
She
Vani j Jun 2016
She
She lied through her teeth
And led me astray with her every breath
She felt like silk even though she was satin underneath
And I felt like a child who got
Vanilla instead of strawberry
# vanilla# strawberry# silk# satin
Vani j Jun 2016
A cat was found on the street
A man had left him lifeless ,beaten
Black and blue literally
It had some scars to show up for the persons artistry
Now a cat is called mean
Well never heard a cat dying a man green
And man is a social animal
But sometimes animal part comes out at the scene
But the fact is man has a bigger animal in him that any lil blue dyed cat named smurf can bring on the scene
And I m not being gender specific each time I write a man there is a man along with a woman ,fact was I just wanted to write human but each time I guess  the animal in me came on the scene.
On a cat who was dyed blue by a human
Vani j Sep 2017
Someone loves u
And It it makes you happy
But does it hide the absence of a soul...
Because you are looking shifty
struggling in plastic
Putting on your branded cheap lisptick
And you think you look good,
And you think if you look good, everything will be fine. Alas.
Vani j Aug 2018
Everything is special
Or nothing is
In its own way
Vani j May 2017
He saw her first day
And thought she was special
Then he saw her next day
And the next
And the next
And the next
And the next
And the next....
That day she saw him
And thought he might be special
But by then he was wondering was there anything special?!
If you repeat something too many times.... Special, special, special, special, special... It loses its meaning.... Meaning... meaning meaning... meaning...
An ode to phil kaye
Vani j Oct 2017
He didn't like women with spine
He was Spineless
Vani j Mar 2017
I will cherish you
Like a mother cherishes her only child

And when sun's rays will fall ******* you
I will stand in the way and protect you from harsh sunlight

When the clouds will burst with heavy rains
I will become your rain cover with utter delight

And God forbid if you fall ill
I will scour the streets in the search of that medicine that will soothe some of your intense plight

I will be the audience when you will stand on your feet and shine your light

Stupefied I will watch you scale mountains and man alike,

You will find me wherever you go... in darkness and in light

Your shadow might not want me... but I will stood my ground and fight the fight...

Everything might die in me
But I will still keep you alive.
Vani j Mar 2017
Where did you go and break yourself into thousand little pieces, heart?
Vani j Oct 2017
She does good in short games
Always.Always.Always
Give her white muscles,give her sprints
She doesn't stick for long ones
It ain't her thing
Continuity is her Kryptonite
One day is all she excels in
She can't stay,she is always runin
Her track record is long but it is always in short things
She is a good Jack of all
But ain't master of nothing
Vani j Sep 2017
She had beautiful eyes
They looked like sunrise
Vani j Jun 2017
She was the kind of sweet that made you choke back your tears
and count them again when you were alone.....
Vani j Oct 2017
She was angry
But now she is resigned
Like an ocean with remaining shells and sounds
He was in the mud,the swine
He threw some on her
Thinking that she will get *****
But the dirtiness was always in his mind
Everyone told her he might have ugliness beneath his beauty
But she thought maybe there was some tenderness hidden behind hard lines
Or That it might be the exception
Or maybe she just got lured
Shiny things attract us
And don't we go bumping in them all the time
But you can't tame a beast,MAN
It will bite you the moment it gets a chance
It will show you its ugliness
Much deeper than the ***** mud on the skin
An incurable....disease of the mind
And make you believe that ...maybe maybe it's just how he is
Or maybe its you....bringing out the beast in him
But let's be honest
Most of the time he is a calculated,conniving,cold hearted monster planning his sinister deeds,well in advance
He requires no apologists
Because All he is ....
is a heartless cold blooded Swine
Formally a pig might get offended by this
Vani j Jul 2017
She asked me my name
And although i had no intention of telling her
I ended up revealing more than she could contain
It was play pretend from then on
I sometimes tried to touch her heart
But my hands passed through
At times she felt like a hologram
She was busy doing chores
while i was counting painful scores
We held each other close
But we couldn't be farther
She was pieced together so tightly
And i was fragmented so badly
But what was common was
We both were broken once
And still are...
Vani j Jul 2016
The love I felt for u
Got lost in time....
Coz let's face the truth.....
It was always me looking for u
And u were nowhere to find
Since debroglie said for everything,
Love must also be a symmetry  and
Half heart can't make something ....
Just a sign.
Imagine only one auricle and ventricle pumping to save our vital signs.
Random heart
Vani j Aug 2016
She took the stairs
and followed her mind shaped road to nowhere.
Nowhere had novocaine and a whole lot of what  should not be shared.
Mind trips,
Dulled her to otherworldly stares,
Bruised lips,
And no one in sight to look for her welfare,
Comatose limbs taking her from nowhere to nowhere.
Fogged brain
taking away every bit of care,
But her dulled heart,
Still dare.
Thump, thump, thump.
Vani j Aug 2017
feel too much
Scratch the surface
Rose petals
Stain on the cheeks
Smile without reason
Songs make u blush
Think too much
Sleepless nights
Testing waters
page after page unread
Am I in love
Or its just love?!
Vani j Jun 2016
If u like trouble,
Then u should come to my place
It has got walls painted with heartbreak,
And no................I had never had a lover
So its hard to explain whose blood got splattered on the gates
Vani j Oct 2017
And you ....you want the cure/disease
But maybe I
I have started liking the disease/cure
And you ....you want to put your heart in the freezer/heater
But maybe I
I had developed a habit of putting
it in the oven
At 100 degrees heat/( it in the fridge)
Vani j Jul 2017
You and me
There is a sea between you and me
Its colored blue.
Vani j Aug 2016
Light are waves,
and waves are light,
So tell me why do I sway
Vani j Jun 2016
I am her summer and she is my June,
I am her Uranus and she is my Neptune,
I am her lyric and she is my tune.
Just random
Vani j Apr 2017
She had heard, Mrs. Briganza the walking rumor mill
She knew her husband was looking for something fresh, run of the mill
She had seen him removing his wedding ring, the other night
She felt the same wedding ring choking her neck, unable to breathe
Tonight
She felt her heart growing out of her ribs and she imagined lying in a pool of blood at her very own feet.
Little johny came rushing in, 'Mama, mama when will daddy be home? '
'Soon' she barely breathed.
She knew she couldn't cry.
Don't all big girls choke on their own tears until they die.
#Rumor will #choke #Little Johny # Big girls
Vani j May 2017
Willow will you weep for me?!
Or are you already weeping for someone else...
Vani j Apr 2017
She was beautiful
Just like the wind
Before storm
Vani j Apr 2017
She was beautiful
Just like the wind
Before storm
Vani j Mar 2017
She loved me more
even though she saw me lying on the floor
She gave me her hand
even though she knew i couldn't stand
She gave me her heart
even though she knew mine was just a painful blot
She loved me in darkness,
She loved me in rain,
She loved me in vain,
She loved me in loneliness,
She loved my pain,
even which I couldn't contain
So I wish her the sun
I wish her the moon
I wish her good days
I wish her a summer noon
About a woman...
You
Vani j Sep 2017
You
I saw you cross the street
And thought... This is how lightening strike must feel like....

Sitting on the desk, when I saw you ducking your head through same doors I walked few minutes back...
I thought... This is what people must mean about life being unfair

I still remember the first question that came out of your mouth(you asked the professor) .. And I thought... This is what losing one's mind must feel like...

When I saw you smiling with another girl, I didn't feel jealous
Was it because I was sure she will not be able to maintain your interest.... For long.. And thought... this is what vanity must feel like

My mind registered... When you were not in the class... And i thought..this is what delusion must feel like

I couldn't help myself from looking at you.... At times... And i thought...this is what looking at a car crash must feel like

I still remember the colour of your shirt that day... Even though i hardly remember anything else and i think...
Work in progress

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