One.
Two..
Three...
I breath in and out
Taking back control over myself

When will I be free from the confines of my brain
Is this only a temporary setback
Or is this a permanent problem that will linger

I write
To let out my frustration
My happiness
My insanity
But I fear that even with this
My mind is slowly warping
Into a wicked creature

Not ready
That's what you told me
Yet you're already dating someone else
Not even a month after
I feel like I should be mourning
But I think I dodged a bullet
You still call other girls for hours
Even though you have a girlfriend
You still cuddle with others too
So in hindsight thank you for leaving
You gave me temporary pain
For a lot more happiness longterm
So thank you?
I still hope you suffer a bit for the ghosting though
After all I am a petty *****

When will the suffering stop
Will it end when you come back
Or will someone else show me the way out

My head is spinning
Everything's running loose
I can't remember the last time I won
I've just been failing all of my mere tasks
Am I going to plummet even faster
Or will this just be the rock bottom
I climb up from