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Jan 2017 utkarsh pandey

Awesome Annie

I place my bare feet to the Earth, my long hair flowing free. I stretch my palms up to the Moon, and ask her to heal me.

Wind blows around me, Winter chill framing my face. My dress clings to the curves of my body, all pain and fears erased.

I won't hang my head anymore, I refuse to drown in Sorrow. I don't have all the missing pieces, but I'll Hope for a better tomorrow.

Dance can be a magical thing, it helps in untold ways. Moonbeams all around me, I haven't felt this Light in days.

I absorb the Universe, I just want to be set free. To cast aside these broken dreams, and find Tranquility.

Jan 2017 utkarsh pandey

enough

Jan 2017 utkarsh pandey

Cali

enough

she slides her finger
along a seashell's iridescence
and takes a four-second breath
when it's edges break skin-
undecidedly feeling like a rag doll;
devoid of happy moving hands
and a barrage of stitches
where her mouth once parted.

it has never been enough,
gliding over this shining meniscus
with feet painted rose gold
and eyes propped open with twigs.

alas, she crosses her toes
and falls into the surf,
awakening slate grey waves
and a smile full of sand.

An old piece I discovered.

Jan 2017 utkarsh pandey

I am not Blue

Jan 2017 utkarsh pandey

Sethnicity

I am not Blue

I treasure your thoughts for they mirror mine
and I often feel like the sky
So blue
but I am
just another reflection of you
the true source of life and all I can do
is jot ******* drops of truth
frigid fractalized isolated idioms
Verbose vapor flakes seeking fictional synonyms
headlong ing to be with you
more than me and I am not really blue

This much is truth
pooling thoughts in my planetarium booth
brainstorming ways to lightning youth

But I am not You

I am see through
a satellite out of view
conduit of the more true, Luna
who is more of an effec-tionate of you
morpheous of midnight master of black, whole, new
presenting red eyed roses nightly reflected by you

(but see me I am through)
Liquid glass
Preview
The deep the blue
and I am not blue

scratching the surface and rippling clues
like Voyager's travels
I am echoing shadows of the beauty
you innerview
snapshots of interstellar War Stars out of sight
I am through, see
you hold mysteries I only understand by sky light
when I move you move and you move with might
the final frontier is my domain but you hold many more
leagues unknown and forget me knots
Consider me the wife of Lott
in the massive wake
a primordial parking lot
present yet nought

Blue

In my ever reaching expanse
am just fuel for flame
fleas and moth flee in the aether of my veins
Which provide little shelter
From larger wings of change
While great and small exist in all
your leagues of  superfluous membrane
Cool azule from whence life can be sustained
Be Tickled by the fingers of my admiration make waves of mutual celebration
But do not be humbly demurred
Be for me what I can not be

Blue

A response to a poet I met here through great fanfare he wishes me the best but i know i will never be him.

Happy New Year HP and be like water my friend!

#poetry #space #iamnotblue #water #descriptive #air #wind

Jan 2017 utkarsh pandey

I'm Sorry That I Can't Give Anything To Make You Remember Me

Jan 2017 utkarsh pandey

Clare Veronica

I'm Sorry That I Can't Give Anything To Make You Remember Me

You came to my life
And taught me a lot of things.
You inspired me
Beyond what could have been.

You were the storm
That changed my calm skyline.
You were the sun
That lit up my dark world.
You were the fire
That burned my worries away.
You were the catalyst
That propelled me forward.

You gave me everything I needed
To grow, to prosper, to be better
Than I used to be.

You gave me so much meaning to my life
But I can't give anything to you in return.
And I'm so, so sorry
That there's nothing I can give
To be able to return what you've given me,
To be able to mark your heart,
To make you remember me,
Like how I will always remember you, 'till my hair turns grey.

#love #poetry #sad #life #him #he #brokenheart #meaning #thankful #notgoodenough

Dec 2016 utkarsh pandey

FADING LOVE

Dec 2016 utkarsh pandey

Lori Jones McCaffery

FADING LOVE

The Merry-Go-Round is stopping - I can hear the music fade.
I can't believe it's ending, that the last tune has been played.
My horse is still in prance formation - she wants to go again.
How do I say the ride is over and all good things must end.

How do I slack the tightly held rein
How do I slip from astride
How do I ease the stabbing of pains
That tell me this was my last ride.

The carnival is closing - I can see them start to pack.
I don't want it to leave us - it may never again come back.
I haven't ridden all the rides yet - I haven't played the games.
How do I turn and go forever, forgetting all their names.

How do I put the coins away
That I had planned to spend
How save for them for a rainy day
And still have some to lend.

The festival is over - all the revelers are gone.
The only sign they've been here are the footprints on the lawn.
I have not finished celebrating - I want to laugh some more
How do I know the dance has ended - it never was before.

How do I turn and head for home
This was my home, you see
How can I feel that if I roam
I'll find a place for me.

#love #lostlove #carnival #carousel

Dec 2016 utkarsh pandey

from a borderline

Dec 2016 utkarsh pandey

Lilith Reid Brown

from a borderline

If the illness is what bothers you,
It's fine-- I'll always change.
That's another symptom, too;
I'll never stay the same.

If it's the mood swings that you hate,
I'll turn them on a dime.
If it's that I lose days and dates,
I'm asking only time.

I didn't mean to split again,
I promise! I was wrong.
I just want you, not other men,
(Don't make me wait too long.)

If it's that I'm borderline,
I guess I'd understand.
I'll always beg you to be mine
Then slap away your hand.

Bpd

Dec 2016 utkarsh pandey

sour (5w)

Dec 2016 utkarsh pandey

Day

sour (5w)

love isn't "blind"
it's
flawed

---

you'll be surprised by the mountains she'll carry towards eden
and by the pebble that will make her drop it all.

do you love her if you haven't considered
how much disappointment she'll let you draw into her heart before
the day she stops?

(it's today)

#love #ache