Your mind is a map
that I want to spend
the rest of my life discovering.
I want to work my way
through every page
that you have ever created.
Know every street, road and alley
until I can navigate across your thoughts
like the inside of my home.

I remember so well when you broke my heart.
It was not passionate, or romantic, or anything like what the books described.
The park we sat in, was so quiet that the beats of my heart sent pulses along the ground and up to the branches of the trees above us.
I can still see the picnic rug when I shut my eyes. Lined blue and red, I ran my fingers across it, much like I used to your spine.
You spoke of your new girl, the way I wished you would speak of me.
Eleonora. You told me.
Your Ellie, Your Leo, Your Norie.
Although it was not this that had pained me.
It was what happened next.
It was the way you turned to me, with your ever fluorescent eyes
and asked me how I was.
It was the way I looked at you and lied.
"Good".

When some one asks you where your home is, do not say his name. Do not say anything. He should not be the place where you feel most safe because his two arms do not suffice for the four walls where you should feel content. If you are not happy with yourself, then you cannot be happy with him.

2. Sit on your roof. Even if it’s only once a week, once a month or once a year. Just sit there. Bring someone or go alone but do not sit there and stare at the stars wishing you were looking down from the sky. You needn't say, think or do anything for a short amount of time so spend it satisfied with your life.

3. If you would not say it to someone you love, do not let someone you love say it to you. You are just as precious as they are, maybe even more.

4. If you like the song, then listen to it again. and again. and once again. Listen to it until the words ring through your mind in the silence. Do not share it with anyone. It may become theirs and you do not want this. Listen to it again.

5. Wear your good shoes. Not the ones that look nice but make you sore. The ones that let you drop your responsibilities and run faster than you ever have before. No one likes the kid that spends the night complaining about their feet.

6. When someone breaks your heart, buy a plant. water it every time you cry and when it dies because you have drowned it, buy a new one.  After there are no tears left and you can finally care for your new plant, you will come to the realisation that although your tears can drown a shrub, they will never drown you. Once you fully understand this. You can finally blossom like the plant you deserve to be.

7. Never judge a book by a cover or a poem by it's title. Words can mean almost anything and sometimes, most shockingly of all. They lie.

You are the deepest wound on my scar covered arms.

You will wake to your coffee each morning,
      with three sugars instead of two,
            because you asked from in front of the mirror,
                  and still didn't see, what I saw.
                        On that day, I will hug you even tighter
                              and take the scales from the bathroom
                                    to smash them on the broken walls of society.

The air is caught in my lungs
and the sun in my eyes.
Songs that I have never heard
are playing so loud
that I know all the words.
There is so much air
in so little a space
that I cannot even breathe.
I forgot what I look like,
and the mirrors refuse to tell me.
We are moving so fast
that my world slows to a stop
and my skins burns
through my chest,
pouring acid over my heart.
Kiss me again.