you feel my despair*
your fingers quench the loneliness

you don't flinch at the touch
I know you've felt it before

fighting the battle
of worth and contentment

love and war

reality and fantasy
my mind paints pictures
and shows movies
that has never touched a screen

yet, I still cannot see
the moral of your story

the focal of the point
its blurry and faint

but the script is still there

the film is still rolling
and the same movie plays

in my mind the same scene
constantly, over again

me yearning for you
needing more of you
hopelessly feening
restlessly dreaming

tossing and turning
in this imaginary love
you aided in me creating

its so warm
and deep
and wet

drenching me completely
in this
mythical story

that you could possibly

no actually

literally

maybe

you could quite love me..

          Fin


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there was a tickle in your nose
water glistening in your eyes
for a millisecond your heart stopped
it skipped a beat
reminding me of how deep
my need is for you
how the corner of your lips smiles at me
your eyes dances at my very sight
my body cooes at the sensation of your fingertip
I inhabit the  moment
I wouldn't be able to live this
impermanent life without your
intense energy flowing through me
the thought takes my emotions
commute it to clay
smashing me into mural
of empty-ness
I pray
your natural defense remains at guard
and strong  
the invaders of your temple has found no home
When I see your eyes shut tightly
your nose dance
your fluids escape across the room
I feel despair
If your heart didn't compensate
that moment to adjust
you wouldn't make it through
I wouldn't have you here
I couldn't remain without you
no other being would do
I intensely felt in that moment
why I say
God bless you

you want my signature on the line
where the blank space lives
tarnishing the pure white
with nothing to give
but why?
should I sign
where is the beneficiary of
any agreement?
you created these words
and transferred it onto the
once beautifully grown tree
slaughtered and decimated
bull dozered all over
and you want me to agree?
What will I have?
I give
and
you live
off my cents that I've
emotionally and physically
slayed over
you want that end result
it is all i have
I wont allow my name
to be slandered
corrupted
ripped apart if you may
if the time calls
my name is accounted
for more than fancy words
adjectives and verbs
there is no agreement
we did not come together
for a conclusion
you've created the
perfect detrimental illusion
and your waiting for me
to comply
I am all that I own
All that I know
my name
perfectly cursived
signifies my dignity
and all that I am
you can't own that
no you won't own that
you can
take a spear
and pierce me
take a rope and
hang me if it'll
make you prevail
but my fingers
wont meet a
single pen
because my nature
will be revealed
any way that you
perceive
it'll give you the power
to deceive
others and blindly me
on this line
I'll have to disagree
because my signature
is all that I am
from the P to the T
it reflects the beauty
that's I see in the mirror
and I wont let you destroy me

You feel you're invincible
being that your sanity is uncontrollable
strolling around with your shoulders past the birds
past the planes
your ignorance succeeds in innumerable ways
your sight is weak
your mind is enable to capture
it's buried under life's adversities and Earth's pleasure
you don't know when to stop so you flood yourself
until you're lame at your ankles
and paralyzed in your emotions

you wend through life this way
well you try
stuck in misery
with no lane to merge
frustration is your best friend
a human is impossible and
incapable of the acceptance
your belittlement draws mankind away
no one wants to attend a pity party
unless their accompanied to your VIP
and to reserve
you are the one to RSVP

Enlighten heads will stray away
pessimism is a curse
rapidly spread by the weak
you have distress and frustration
suppressed
strangled screams
holds your eyelids open at night
deliberations controls your emotions
controls your feet
throughout the day
you are terrified of tangibility
so you indulge yourself excessively
burying your true identity
becoming irritable when bearing your sober mind

if only you knew how divine you are
you would grow to love yourself
in ways incompetent of how you could love so hard
look yourself in your eyes
find who you are
even if you have to savagely search
you'll see the soul people has grown to
love so much
you'll notice your beauty
that covers endless realms
or your strength that could hurl a boulder
No one can help you discover
your destiny
it's your journey you'll have to make alone
but during the expedition and constant footsteps
the process of elimination could be your guide

find your inner child
it can help your prevail that's
where you once had happiness
your joy was established there
because if you continue the silencing
of your heart's cries and
your soul's screams
you'll live a life analogous to hell
and that is

a nightmare's worst dream



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