I want to lower myself onto you
Onto your tongue

I want to watch while you reach for me

I grab your hair
Feel
Feel
Feel me

I want to move with you
Unit I forget

Rise and fall
I try to stay quiet
But I don't care too much

Look at me
Not in my eyes
Watch when I take you
Watch my eyes roll
Watch my hips move

Kiss me
Kiss me please
Kiss my lips my chin my neck my chest my nips my
Please

And when I met you
       I had no idea
That all the seemingly small moments
Would collect like raindrops in a storm

        I didn’t event stand a chance

Swept away

         But ,oh, the ride was beautiful

the voices said
there's nothing like
waking up deep into the night
and not hearing any voices

and I believed them

I scroll
Mindless
Spineless
Pictures pass as time does

I know more of my own face
Than I do of my words
Who am I?
Is left unanswered
How do I look?
An exhaustive list
Complaints and room for improvement
Although my mind is a stronger tool
I grapple only with the superficial

But I was programmed this way
To judge others
Pictures
Likes
Trained to respond to the outside
Before exploring within

I hate to imagine what is becoming of us

I wish you knew the damage you've done
But you are so ignorant
Bliss
I only wanted to give you
At my expense
Often
I cared for you more than myself
Always
I felt guilty

If only I could explode like you
Is it cathartic?
What purpose does it serve?
You only hurt yourself
And me
And the wall
And the chair
But instead I keep mine
I let it flow
Down my face but far from yours
Never explaining to you
The damage you were doing

You filled a piece of me that was missing for far too long
A piece that was none of your business to touch
But I grazed your fingers over it
And pressed your lips into it
Momentary peace
I traded
For my self respect
For my freedom
For my everything

I sank deeper
It wasn't your fault
How could you have known
You truly wanted the best
I think
For us
But we both knew
It wasn't each other