Escape
Escape
I'm always his escape
Somewhere where he finds peace and solace
Somewhere where he runs from his problems
But I've learned that
Vacations aren't forever
Eventually, you must go home

You've shared your body with others
Made false promises & empty wishes
I shouldn't look at you
She still wants you
Plotting and planning ways to crawl under silk sheets
With your muscular body lying on top
I shouldn't wish to see you
She still thinks about you
Wanting to know if you still want her
You're off limits
You can't be mine
But my mind still wonders about you
There are too many what-ifs
Constantly running through my mind like waves
I can only offer friendship
We are forbidden from each other
Everyone wants us apart
But the distance is drawing me to you
My guilty pleasure is that I want you
When your eyes run over my body
It excites something in me
The only solace is that you're away
The distance between our homes
Is my saving grace
Stopping me from doing anything reckless
'I cant you touch,' I tell myself
'You're not mine,' I remind myself
She still wants you
Plotting and planning ways to  crawl under your silk sheets
You aren't mine
So I must say goodbye.

Nothing breaks like a heart
How long will it take for you to heal?
Pain and sadness has become your new personality.
Where did you go?
You use to be bubbly and easy.
But he has change you.
Where did you go?
Come back,
I need you.

A flashlight can only let you see so far into the darkness, eventually you have to turn the lights on.

I'm craving something I no longer have
Craving something I miss deeply
Constantly running towards a temporary fix,
Knowing it won't last
I miss the warmth & security of  someone's arms
Feeling at bliss, my heart rest
Now, here I am restless
Always searching for something
I know it won't come soon enough.