I tried to understand
When you asked me to let you in
I tried to open my heart
I opened my arms
I opened my past
I shared
And I do not feel the reciprocation
I feel my energy and output is much greater than yours
Maybe I fail to understand what it means for you to share something
I know you do not understand what it means when I share everything

Talking isn't dating
Dating isn't committing
Commitment isn't contentment
Contentment isn't forever
Forever isn't love
Forever is until they get bored...

And they asked:
What word defines
your society?
And I said :
Instant coffee
Why?
Because we desire
energy
and
speed
in everything
we do

How
you express love
is based on your past
experiences

Too much of a cold wind,
The mailbox is empty,
And the shadows are too pale.

all-too-few feelings,
with strange endings, without beginnings,
in a no man's land of my soul.

i'm a little older now,
a little less naive.
there used to be
more colour
to my dreams,
but now there's just
a residue
of chances that i missed,
forever lost in time.

i'm a little smarter now,
a little less surprised
when people leave;
no heartbreaks,
no goodbyes.
and now i'm just
collecting lies
from strangers that i kissed,
one sparkle at a time.

i'm a little older now,
a little less naive.
sometimes i see
their faces
in my dreams,
but now they're just
a residue,
a taste upon my lips,
forever lost in time.

You have all my attention even when the Corona is the world issue.

feeling left out doesn't push me to get to know more people
it makes me push out the people I know and burn the bridges