i just finished it.
the book you gave me.
the story of someone who went from nothing
someone who felt nothing
someone who's life didn't seem worth living
someone who grew to become greater than the sum of their parts
and now i lay here
completely engrossed
and i see why you love this book so much

maybe the big bang made us closer than you'd think.
maybe me exploring the universe led the universe to help me find you.
again.
as if we were close before
as if that ache
is just physics doing its work.

twenty one questions led to a hundred
and six months on i'm eager for more.
because baby half a year ago you touched my heart
like no one has before
and like no one will.
young and bold we leapt into love like nothing mattered
because at the time it felt like we had nothing to lose
but now
now we have the world to lose.
because we have each other.
my beautiful winter girl
you make me smile every single day.
you make me see the future as a goal to fight for.
i will fight for you.
fight to keep you safe and fight to keep you happy
til the day you hold me back.
i will protect you against every storm.
and make sure everyone knows of how proud i am.
to call you mine.
to say "she's here today."
you're here today. and you will be tomorrow.
with me.

so
with all that said
I love you more than time.
So when i go discovering the secrets of the universe
i'll be ready and willing to have you to hold my hand.
so here's to six, and many more.

the sky is falling
tumbling...turning
like you in bed
1:00AM lost in between your own two ears
"Like thunder with no lightning" restless.

i said the universe is testing us
today it gave me a hint.
24 hours ago you old me of the earth shaking
now i saw it on stage
i saw the sky fall
night fell
and monsters came out to play.

I've said i see images of the future
but sometimes the universe shows me snippets
leads me in the right direction
and tonight it showed me the direction where we stay, where we wish upon a falling star.

when the sky falls
hold me tighter.
for today and tomorrow it may keep falling but i promise you
I'll put the stars back in your sky.
night after night.

nothing can tell me otherwise that that star fell for a reason
and that play showed where it landed in the future.
where dreams are made of.
where wishes come true.
when the rain stops falling, and sun shines through.

i am no god
but nor am i powerless
for i promise you that i will make your dreams come true.
when the sky falls wish upon the cracks to the void
because i'll make those wishes come true.
We'll stand back and say, truly, we are happy with the life we made.

wishing upon a star seems old but recently i see it in a different view
the universe shook the walls of your house
but only as recognition for shaking the ground beneath my feet
because baby
the sky is falling
and so am I.

Look
Im scared too
We didn’t plan for this
Us
We assumed to wander
But now I cant help but wonder
What ******* chances these are
For you to pop out from the crowd
For you to pick up your phone
For you to pick me.
I could of stayed home that night.
And none of this would be the same.
We could of met at any point.
In the past, too early to be ourselves.
In the future, too late for our eyes to catch sight.

What I’m trying to say is that the universe put pieces in place for us to meet when we did
Because if we didn’t, would we/you/I still be here today?
We offer each other safety and happiness in abundance like hugs.
And passion like popping champagne.
And right now
Right ******* now
The universe is testing us.
It gave us these pieces and started the puzzle and now we have to finish it.
Because everything that is worth while is worth fighting for.
While we wait for weather to clear and sun to shine through,
Enjoy the rain clouds, because next time they come along, we’ll be in sunlight of our own.
Next time the rain comes life will have only just begun
Because like water to a plant those clouds bring me life and hope that one day
One day.
That house will exist.
And sure, we didn’t plan to have this at this time.
But **** it.
When did things ever go to plan?


So.
It’s us against the world.
I’m holding your hand until the day you let me go but I’m praying that day will never come.
So maybe I am scared, but I’m not worried.
Scared because I can’t see the future;
But not worried because I can imagine it.

Let’s write our own fairy tale.

I had a mocha today.
My lips devoid of yours needed comfort from what is to be our taste without you.
I need those monday mocha kisses
So i improvised
It wasnt enough.

i see in pictures
no really, real pictures.
i still remember what the piazza looks like in my family's home town
its been 7 years.
i remember the old church next to it where they got married
i remember the stained glass windows along the walls
i remember the coffee shop across from the street that served espressos in tiny ornamental cups
i see it all.

7 years on and now i see you
i see you in that first red dress.
that first night with locks of hair that made me melt into the floor.
i see you in a dark cinema where i took the best risk of my life
where everything changed and now months later i see you
in a dress walking down the staircase
like an angel walking down from heaven.
i see you in my bed surrounded by the darkness of the night
your breath on me heavy with mine.
lost without a care.
i see you. by my side.
and i cant help but think how lucky i am.

as i write i view each moment like a photograph in my mind, some are fuzzy and unfocused but some are as clear as sunshine.
bright like the sunshine you are to me.

but i know, things are hard.
someone is going around stealing photos.
stealing images.
but we're going to take them back.

because i havent only seen and see now.
i can see what the future holds.
i can see the dew on the winter window and our faces pierced with sunlight.
i can see the nervousness of our first days into a new uni or work
and see the moment we reconvene at the end of the day to tell each other all about it
on the grassed steps of a sunken garden staircase holding hands
to birds chirping. sun shining or clouds pouring.
i can see us holding cups of tea watching ****** netflix shows
talking about anything everything
ill tell you the secrets of the universe as ill discover them
and later in the night,
we'll discover the secrets of our own hearts and souls.
between sheets. where we fall asleep to the sound of our own heartbeats
steady
steady.

i can see all of it.
clear as day even on a rainy night that this time may be to us.
to you.
you.
you did this to me.
you changed everything.
i can see all of it.
the future we could have with some time and hard work
with some love.
without letting anyone stand in our way.
because baby I'm ready to fall in love with you again and again
every single day because
i can see the future sometimes.
because i see in pictures.
no really, real pictures.
real pictures with real people like me
and you.
and us.