I'm only human I know I’m not perfect,
Maybe the curses gifted to me were on purpose,
Maybe to suffer pain is my purpose,
But I'm still alive,
Refuse to lose to my pride,
That'll be Lucifer in your eyes,
I got a feeling that her heart isn't pure,
Or maybe I'm just being insecure,
But it's bugging me I got to know for sure,
My inner thoughts conflicted,
I remain dismissive,
It's indicative of how I cope with the stress,
I close myself away have you guess,
What's the weight bearing on my chest?
But at the same time I realise I'm blessed,
So what am I talking about?
What do I have to be depressed about?
I'm a misfit of society,
I blend in with those who hired me,
They're going to be the same ones that fired me,
But that will light a fire within me,
I've got a heart of a demon that's dreaming,
To be free of the heathen,
Just give me a reason to keep breathing,
And I’ll keep believing,
That there's a better way,
I might even pray,
The only I thing I ask for is to have Mercy on me,

I walked through hell just to show my love what lust is,
Somehow we ended up corrupted,
My hearts full of sorrow,
Wondering where we could have been tomorrow,
Instead I'm chasing my dreams at the bottom of a bottle,
This liquors got my minds distorted,
Trying to hold myself together but I can't get off it,
Blowing up your phone calling you names,
These are the moments I'm the most ashamed,
That makes me feel like a coward,
This was never meant to make me feel empowered,
I'm the same man that brought you flowers,
We fell apart like that same rose bud,
Was it a single issue or was it an issue with us?
Or was it an issue with trust?
Now you're saying that you can't look back at us without a feeling of disgust,
The mistrust you saw in my eyes was the reason for your lies,
But that just sound like an excuse to me,
I don't know who you used to be,
Or this who you really used to be,
Now I'm throwing these other people to the side once they are of no use to me,

All these years have passed and still nothing has changed,
So we have to march,
Against the abomination of colour segregation,
I'm just tired of all the lies I want to know what's real,
If I stand by your side will you show me the deal?
I’ve got the moon and the stars beneath my feet,
Will that be enough to free my speech?
Tried to climb peaks that were placed deliberately out of our reach,
They envy my life but I envy theirs,
Heaven looks great until you have to climb the stairs,
I capture my emotions in a liquor potion,
It's all good swimming with your tears in the ocean,
And if I can sleep tonight,
I'll let them know I wasn't afraid of the light,
Can you feel the fluttering inside?
Just come lay with me on my side,
And let's both watch the butterflies fly out of our eyes.

That white flag has been sitting in that case
Since I been born
And it will still be there
When I die

Frequently,
I race across the words
reading too rapidly,
missing the depths
of descriptive sounds,
and failing to engage
the full immersive array
of language the writer displays
because I wish to portray
the fiction of a deep person
who reads intelligently.