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 Jun 2016 Theresa M Rose
dth
Jealousy changes you—it completely shifts your mind and paradigm and way of thinking and way of seeing things.

Jealousy  makes your brain cloudy with anger, unable to think clear.

Jealousy makes you succumb to the gruesome power of fear.

Jealousy raises up your ego in a heartbeat, making you defending yours like your whole life clings to it.

Jealousy takes your will to love—if it's still there at all. Because who knows loving someone could be this exhausting?

Jealousy makes you a repugnant, revolting human being.

...and jealousy has successfully done every single thing above, to me.
I am a repugnant, revolting human being.
Summer time comes and it's time for a swim,
Dipping my toe gingerly in
When your laugh yanks me off my solid ground.
"Stay in the shallow end," I tell myself, remembering our last trip to the pool.
"Dare not to breathe when he pulls you under,
tasting so much like air as he pulls you close,"
Treading water to stay afloat,
Remembering all that lay at your floor,
A Glimmering Treasure Trove
That will too easily become a home.
Surely, I'll get swimmer's heart,
An achey ringing,
In the center of my chest,
The antidote, found in the eyes of
One who could drain the pool
Without Notice.
 Jun 2016 Theresa M Rose
dth
Fear
 Jun 2016 Theresa M Rose
dth
fear is such an ugly thing;

it gives you a sense of insecurity,
knowing just how many things that can go wrong.

it gives you a sense of uncertainty,
unknowing just what are the odd
of the things that can go wrong—
or would they ever happen at all.

it numbs you,
making you lose the ability to feel.

because why would you even choose
to feel only to get hurt,
if you could shut yourself down
from the whole world
before you got hurt?

it alters your mind,
turning you from a logical human being
to a big incoherent, irrational pile of mess.

and the most frightening thing of all,
is that fear scares you so much
that you can't do anything
but giving in to it.
...but I'm still afraid to lose you.
She couldn't stay away for long
So comes every night to see you
Sleeping in peace and she smiles
That her love is having nice dreams.
Now she is not selfish
She doesn't gets angry,
Things changed her.  
But what changed her, changed you too.

Every night when she sits on the window,
She wants to be inside, sleep by your side
And tell you how much she loves you.
Only if u could open the window and let her inside.
It is summer and soon the Perseid showers
I have gone from my desert home
I wander far from crowded towns
my feet in grassy, bee clover
deep summer, all daisy flowered
green leaves, wild blackberries
await the August sun fire.

Here amid the slowing of mars retrograde
of my love returning home too late
no long goodbye, only the weight
I watch oceans of seaweed sway
at night the phosphorescence
the lonesome of sea stars trailing.
 Jun 2016 Theresa M Rose
Eloi
Lately I've been measuring,
It Seems that my time is growing thin,
Wind me up and watch me spin.

I'm just skin and bones

All worn out and nothing fits
Brennevin and cigarettes
The more I give the less I get
But I'm all set,

To be just skin and bones.
Oh you know how life can start out rough
but it doesn't make the mark of a man
It's how he pushes through when everything gets tough
and in the end he knows who he is

I met a man about a quarter century ago
who showed me the best example of this
his voice was made of thunder exciting my nerves and bone
learning how he knew how to live

Until they call you home
you don't have to know
but when they call you home
you've got to say "I'm just me"
when they call you home
you have to know
because I know
yes I know

He showed how a man can learn to make progress
As soon he can understand
Life is not always about the common sense
Timing is part of God's plan

There isn't much that you can do about it
and nothing fast enough to try to stop it
my lesson learned in life is that this is not the end
So I'll see you on the other side my friend

Until they call you home
you won't have to know
and when they call you home
you have to say "I am free"
and when they call you home
you have to know
because I know
yes I know

That you're finally free
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