The walls I built
Inside my head
A reminder
Of all the things that made me mad

Lack of confidence
Lack of trust
To succeed
Those two things are a must

I will
Out grow my shell
And move to
A bigger hell

the girl
In the back of the room
the girl
That never raises her hand

the one
Who's afraid of sounding stupid
the one
Who's scared to get hurt

the person
That everybody judges
the person
That isn't good enough

that person
Was me
Before I found my voice

So many things-
We complain about in life
It is time- that we
Stop taking things so light

Now and days
Everything is a game
But I know
I don't want it to remain this way

A world of violence
A world of loss
Destruction-
Is the ultimate cost.

Locked up in Isolation
Guarded by golden gates
I look for an exit
But there seems to be no escape

Trapped-
By the ones I love
My "prince"
Is on his way

He will open the gate
That guards my heart
And I shall
Be free again

But-
In time
Retained
By my brutal mind games

It has been 5 months
Since you passed
Heaven-
Must be truly blessed

A birthday cake
Big enough for two-
A piece for Jesus
And a piece for you

Although I miss
Your warm embrace
Loss is something-
That we all have to face.

I'm done putting faith in
Back stabbing *******
Who never gave a ****
About me

You never gave a ****
Never gave a ****-
About pretty
little me

Stop pretending that you care
This is not a love affair.
Your love- I shouldn't
Have to share

But you never gave a ****
Never gave a **** -
About pretty
Little me

I am -
Such a fool
Will never be more
Than a broken power tool

My heart is breaking
With every step I take
What if- I turn out to be
Some big mistake

I never do-
Anything right
I am hanging on
With my very last might.

I am about to give up
And throw in the towel
But maybe it is the best I can do
At least for a little while